endless pain and misery

=/

2009-09-12T15:23:00.000-07:00

its been ages since i posted.. and no ones prolly gona see this.... things are so hectic now.. i haf exams on monday and i dont know wad im doing up at this unearthly hour typing this.... im surprised i actually remember my password haha..

i dont know why but i suddenly feel v sad.. its one of those quiet moments where u look back in time and realised that u haf wasted alot of ur time doing nothing, not studying hard.. sigh.. i wish i could go back in time and undo all the wrong i haf done..

here i am listening to coco lee's "before i fall in love" and emoing.. lol.. what is wrong with me... owells.. so much for having a blog..zzzz

god hear my prayers

2008-10-23T11:42:00.000-07:00

things arent still going well for my family... granddad is now in hospital.... somehow his stomach is bleeding and its quite serious.. hes been warded at tan tock seng and doctors are pending whether to do an op for him because he has low blood pressure and worse of all.. hes 91.. i hope he makes it through this... and srsly.. i hope things work out better for my family.. god bless all of u and hope u guys pray for my granddad.. =(

T_T boo hoo hoo

2008-10-18T15:29:00.000-07:00

day of reckoning is comin.. alex is going to australia for execise wallaby!! for a whole mOnth!! lol.. owells .. wish him all the best.... lol.. take a chill pill bro.. its something everyone must go through... er.. except for me... howie... lol.. remember to buy nice stuff back for me k.. lol.. owells.. hope u enjoy the pic.. its the one taken when u stayed over my hse on my birthday face..suck it up orgy face

feeling so down...

2008-10-06T14:02:00.000-07:00

last month could possibly be the worst month ever...... for starters.. i was down with a flu that lasted 2 weeks.. couldnt even sleep properly.. went to see doctor but the medicine didnt help much... =(

next.. my lappie crashed while i was wowing halfway... it was like.... the most boring week i could ever have.. i even had to borrow my sister's laptop so that i could log in for a while.. lol.. after awhile.. it didnt even matter.. thank god i got my laptop back in a week..

worst of all.. dad's business had some probs.. he lost close to a million bucks.. i know he feels fucked up which is why i let him vent his frustrations on me.. i dont really care.. but one day.. i know im gona make enough money and let my family live like royalty.. anyways all the best in wadeva u guys do out there.. need anything i'll always be here for ya.. although some fuckers call me "homer" cos i'd rather stay at home and nt go out LOL..

peace out! xoxo

fwens

2008-09-19T11:35:00.000-07:00

good old times are coming back!

oh mi gawd

2008-09-09T10:21:00.000-07:00

Lake Nakuru National Park (188 km²), created in 1961 around Lake Nakuru, near Nakuru Town. It is best known for its thousands, sometimes millions of flamingos nesting along the shores. The surface of the shallow lake is often hardly recognizable due to the continually shifting mass of pink. The number of flamingoes on the lake varies with water and food conditions and the best vantage point is from Baboon Cliff...

gawd damit... i wanna go this place!!!!! srsly.. its shud be included in the 1000 places to see before u die.. its b-e-a-utiful...

sigh--

2008-08-19T15:37:00.000-07:00

whats a secret?

something that nobody shud know? or something that everyone knows abt jus that no one mentions it?

trust .. hard to earn but easily broken...

Recently ive been thinking alot abt the past..
gawd.. hws times haf gone by so quickly..
another year almost over.. nothing acomplished..
wad saddens me is nothing has changed..
promises of becoming a better person..
promises of kickin bad habits...
they arent more than an empty shell
nt only are my parents giving up on me..
im slowly giving up on myself now..

a bright future is ahead of u she said...
but all i see is a life of regret..
a life full of hate and anguish..
my children will hate me.. my wife will dispise me..

sighness

travelling while i still can.. =(

2008-07-24T18:00:00.001-07:00

so here we go again.. after not blogging for ages.. ive decided to add another entry.. but u cant blame me.. i mean.. who reads this shit anyways haha.. anyway.. ya.. we left for hong kong suddenly.. mom jus came in and said.. wanna go for a short holiday so i was like yea so.. here we go.. to hOng kOng

we arrived at 10pm-ish at night .. and first thing i noticed was the temp.. it was pretty freaking hot even at night man.. wtf rite.. pfft.. ya.. checked into hotel and dad and mom went out to tapau food back for me..

2nd day.. morning.. i called room service.. heres the conversation

MAN : wai...
ME : room service?
MAN : wai
ME : Why wad?
MAN : wai wai pin wai?
ME : i need some towels in room 2106
MAN : wai...
ME : WHY UR #$%^@!! (hang up)

haha.. bloody hell.. they really shud employ some pple that speak english man.. or at least understand the fuckin language... anwyays.. we went shopping at nathan street.... where we always go.. all the high end stuff there. pfft.. luckily we didnt get lost.. thanks to our tour guide (me) haha.. didnt buy much though

at night went for dinner with unCLE from hK.. diNnEr was shiokerlicious.. 10 course meal... mmm.. (feeling hungry now ) after that we took a cab down to te bowling alley to see eugene and the rest of team singapore bowl.. very impressed with the bowling commitee that hosted the event.. anways went backk to hotel and bought some dessert before going back to room

Day 3

we planned to go Ocean park in the morning but weather was bad.. starting raining non stop but we decided to go anyways la.. not gona waste my holiday and jus stay in hotel room.. anyways when we reached ocean park it stopped raining. so we hurried through everthing.. and went to take cable cars up to the mountain.. bad mistake.. beacuse when our cable car was in the middle on the way up.. a storm came and the whole damn thing couldnt stop shaking.. haha.. scared the shit outta me man.. anyway we made it up obviously.. and fuck the rain didnt stop. we waited for awhile more.. before we decided to go sit some rides that will get us wet.. since it was raining already anyways.. after that.. we couldnt stand it anymroe so we took a cab to meet dad and mom who were at the shopping center.. as we were all soaked.. we walked into some shop and jus bought clothes there haha..

after that we did more shopping and went for dinner with yet somemore relatives..

Last day..

did some last min shopping and bought heaps of dvds... =)))) went to the airport and said bye bye hong kong and soon.. we were back in singapore.. PfFT.. BORING!!!!!

good times bad times shalalala

2008-07-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

We were as one, babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'll let you fly

'Cause I know in my heart, babe

Our love will never die

No

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Boy, don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

-_- u guys will always be a part of me =))

=)

2008-06-26T16:22:00.000-07:00

For those of you who are feeling lost and helpless and wadever.... do cheer up ok.. because life is so precious... anyway.. here are 2 vids to cheer u up... they sure did cheer me up ahah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4NxzlmihiI <--- indo idol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RgL2MKfWTo < --- the famous ken lee haha

ahhhh soo wonderful

2008-06-25T13:27:00.001-07:00

without doubt.... this is the 2nd love of my life.. after my druid ( which is first of cos) lol... nth brings me more joy then seeing my 2 babies killing alliance .. sigh.. such a sweet sight.. =pPpP

its been so long...

2008-06-18T02:03:00.000-07:00

GET OUT OF MY DREAMS AND MY NIGHTMARES.... JUST LEMME HAVE A GOOD NIGHT'S REST..PLEASE... FOR ONCE..

happy birthday foOng

2008-06-02T15:25:00.001-07:00

to everyone that celebrated my 22nd birthday with me... thanks alot!~ really appreciate it.. although it was fuckin boring and nth like my 21st... it was still a great time hanging out wif u pple...

anyway on the eve of my birthday... howie and jem had dinner with me... tgt with my family (excluding jeong) haha.. the food was great as usual(tony romas) after that we jus went for coffee... hmm.. alex came over after that to stay the night where we had time to catch up on old times.. =))

birthday itself was pretty much bOring.. haha.. had dinner with the gang at yatch club.. and went ktv after that... =) owells.. i promise next year.. ITS GONA BE HUGE.. thanks to everyone that wished me happy birthday as well.. <33333 love yall loads

happy birthday mom!!

2008-05-13T22:05:00.001-07:00

hey mom!! happy birthday!! may all ur dreams and wishes come true.. u know we love u even though we're always being irritating... thanks for putting up wif all our nonsense and always giiving us everything we want... we love u loads... hahaha... oh ya my birthday coming leh.. WiNkz wiNkz**

soulbound

2008-05-08T18:27:00.000-07:00

soulbound.... where pple meet online.... become friends... and then family... FOR THE HORDE

sian

2008-05-07T17:52:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian sian sian

i hate school... its so stressful and everthing... its 9 am now and i havent slept.. cos ive been doing fucking project all night... i fucking wanna quit sch.... i really do.... fuck..

behold!!

2008-05-04T14:33:00.001-07:00

owells... its my 100th post!!! and recently ive been doin nth but sch and wow... so yeah... life is boring ass..... my condolences to alex and his family.. i hope u guys are alrite.. and even if we dont hang out anymore... i want u to know that u'll always be in my heart. love ya all...

by the way... dont my druid look fab? i mean... look at the netherdrake man!!!!

moving on...

2008-04-28T18:53:00.001-07:00

Moving on with my life.. ive finally started schooling again... it all seems so vaguely familiar but somehow.. different.. memories of my younger school years keep flooding my mind... making new friends and learning new things.. it all seems like such a refreshing new start.. i finally haf new things to keep me occupied instead of being emo all the time.. lol...

ANyways.. being in school.... is like being in another country.. my class for example... its a totally cool experience to be able to study with pple from all around asia.. and even from places as far as madagarscar.. yeah theres a girl from there.. well em.. theres a german girl too... an indian dude... 2 pple from myanmar.. yupz.. the rest are malaysians and indonesians.. well.. its a pretty good mix.. but they wont understand my english unless i "slang" haha.. and its pretty hard for me to understand the lecturer as well...

ME : er.. wad button do i click?
CHRIS : doubleclickdoubleclick
ME : HUH!? duplicate?
CHRIS : double click
ME : OH... double click.. grrrrr

lol.. owells.. guess i jus gotta get used to him... quite a nice chap.. hes from the phillipines. =) reminds me of...... jolly bee (their equivelent of macdonalds). Like i was saying... its like being in a totally different environment.. so it does feel kinda weird because once i step out of school... i see bugis junction which really does Knock reality back into me that im still in SINGAPORE...

anyways... havent been hanging out with anyone lately... sure makes me feel kinda lonely... pple watching movies without calling me.... going out without calling me.. i mean.. dan how different would it be from me going to study in australia? i wished i made the choice to study there then... mayb things would haf been much better for me.. hope things will go back to the past.. although somethings cant be reversed... and somethings cannot be forgotten... it may take time to heal so lets jus let it heal.. we've got time anyways... anyway... i hope everyone is healthy and happy.. peace out.. love yall still...(even though u all dont like me anymore) =(

i will always love u baby.........my 1 and only..... defender of mulgore

happy birthday lesley!!!!

2008-04-21T14:41:00.000-07:00

happy birthday lesley!!!! may all ur dreams and wishes come true... =)) anyways.. lesley's birthday was celebrated at home club...not as cool as i thought it would be.. but ya... nevertheless.. it was still fun to hang out wif friends and all... enjoy the pics pple =pp love yall all.. fooNgy xoxo

NiGhT sAfArI

2008-04-21T14:36:00.000-07:00

yup.. thats how bored we were..we actually made a trip to the night safari... lol... singapore really gets boring at times.. and doin things that u dont normally do really refreshes u up... but sometimes it does hurt abit when u think abt the past.. abt how we used to come here in a big grp.. and now its down to jus me pek and howie... pretty sad really.. wad has happen to us?

=)

2008-04-20T13:13:00.000-07:00

so many things have happened recently that i dont haf time to blog... but i promise i will tmr!!! a long one!!!!!!!!! in the mean time.. everyone take care ok!!!!! xoxoxoxoxo loads of hugz and kisses for everyone

a night trip

2008-04-08T09:31:00.001-07:00

Feeling all lost and alone.. my problems seem to be like a smoke ring... which gets bigger and bigger as time goes by.. ohwells..dont seem to haf anyone to turn to nowadays.. anyway... was feeling pretty fuckin bored yest wondering wad to do.. wanted to go ecp and emo alone.. but pek called... so we went out.. suprisingly.. it was pretty fun...

12.45am - pek arrived at my place and we drove to hk cafe for some drinks and food.. talked cock awhile and then decided where else to go...

1.57am - we drove to carpark H in ecp to disturb pple who are too cheapo to pay for a hotel room.. sadly.. it was too dark and we couldnt see anything..

2.38am - next we drove to changi village as i needed to take a piss badly... we stopped at the carpark and i went to the toilet while pek went to get some cigarettes..met an old friend and jus stopped to say hi..

2.55am - got back to the car and smoked for a bit before driving around the carpark trying to disturb bapoks.. sad to say.. the bapok that i "liked" was taken by the time we made the second round... pretty hot they were...

3.01am - drove to dinosaur land to check out the malay bapoks.. pretty fucking disgusting... one of them said " honey.. tumpang me" dan we were feeling quite disgusted so we sped off..

3.22am - arrived at T3 airport... suprisingly empty... no one around.. walked around for abit before headin back to the car.

3.39am - drove to T2 for breakfast... saw yakun kaya toasts so me and peky sat down and had some food.. 4 eggs and 4 kaya toasts later.. me and pek went out for an awesome smoke...

4.09am - left the airport for my hse when suddenly.. pek said.. actually i dont mind having ba chor mee..so we stopped at the one near my hse... haha.. thank god we didnt eat.. had soup only...

4.33am - reached home and wowed till 6 plus and pek left my place at 7...

well... thanks for hanging out bro.. although it would haf been more fun if we eached had a bapok.. LOL.. owells.. cya soon

melbourne trip...

2008-04-07T06:59:00.000-07:00

jus came back from melbourne about a week ago to go and check out my uni campus.. sad to say... wad used to be my second home has changed into a place that is filled with misery and sadness.. thoughts ran thru my head every night..wondering if this was the right path for me to take..matters didnt help as dad consistently went around looking for places for me to live in.. and constantly taking me from campus to campus.. seeing professor to professor..

anyway other than that... i met up wif some old friends... namely my guardians... and sam chua.. and he introduced 2 very nice people to me... pearly and kat.. haha.. :D anyways... i shall let fate decide lor... but hopefully.. things will turn out ok for me.. love yall.. :D take care.. study hard everyone

s.t.u.c.k

2008-03-27T03:36:00.000-07:00

The rain is fallin.. from the skies...
My tears are flowin.. from my eyes
My tears are still flowin... like a stream
I tried to wake up.. but this isnt a dream

Im stuck in a place i used to call home
but now its all different.. i jus wanna come home
Over here im miserable and sad....
bUt dad goes...." OH ITS NOT THAT BAD!"

i dont know wad to do..im confused and lost
my options are limited .. my time is running out..
wad shud i do? wad CAN i do?
someone help me..... someone lend me a listening ear
but i guess no one can... cos im stuck here
ZoMg..sigh... wtfx... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh sigh sigh

a fruitful journey

2008-03-12T14:41:00.000-07:00

its been a long but fruitful journey my friend destoyerz... from a lvl 1 druid.. ive brought him up to a level 70 druid with pretty cool items... how sad.. it seemed like forever before i reached 70... but there were happy moments too.. like the time i reached level 10.. i could transform into a bear.. and 20.. a cat... at lvl 30... a cheetah... such wonderful memories like these will never be forgotten... i love u destroyerz... forever and ever.. lmao... =))

emo-wad a sensation

2008-03-09T21:48:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

b-e-a-utiful song =) 97 days

invisible to u...........

2008-03-03T17:44:00.000-08:00

You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat
Every time he walks by
And if you're feeling down, he'll pick you up
He'll hold you close when you're making love
He's everything you've been dreaming of..

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you, all I am is the invisible man.

sad but true... sigh

SOULBOUND

2008-03-03T01:46:00.000-08:00

as usual... tues there is maintenance... so we soulbounders try to get together and do something .. other than WOW... anyways met up wif a few guildies that ive never met before.... slekeny..riddos... cods.. HOTBLOODS... Gdead.. GRAVE.. hahaha.. it was quite fun.. started wif steamboat at bugis... me keith candymachine and jeong were challenging who could eat the most... obviously i lost first... anyways.. after that.. we went to some lanshop to play counterstrike and dota... noobiex(alan) owned all the way man... cant take it... he is jusss tooo good...

anyways it was great fun and i hope we can do it again sometime soon... FOR THE HORDE!!!

a special someone

2008-02-28T20:36:00.001-08:00

zOMg!!!! he can do it both ways!!! hahaha... here u go howie.... here is for saying i dont put ur pics on my blog... now everyone can see how talented u are!!!!!!!!!! love ya bro hugz

happy birthday jEoNgy aka dEadSAxXiE

2008-02-22T14:06:00.001-08:00

happy birthday jeongy!!!! ure 23 freakin years old.. heres a song for u...

"happy birthday to YOU HOO HAH .. happy birthday to you HOO HAH.. HaPPy biRthday To jEoNg hOoHAH ha happy birthday to YOU!!!!"

jeongs birthday was celebrated at fish n co.... well it would haf been a surprise if MOM didnt spoil the plans.. haha.. anyway it was pretty fun as all the fish and co pple celebrated it with us as well... food was great.. company was great... friends were there.. well.. ok the cake was pretty small.. haha.. but overall. great fun..!!!!!

fish and co fish and co... OH! haha
enjoy the pics guys.. love yall hugz

chinese new year 2008

2008-02-19T12:26:00.000-08:00

well chinese new year cant b much fun without the company of great friends.. haha.. this year was no different from others.. friends came over and we had a huge gambling session.. it was great fun and i really enjoyed the company of all my close fwens... lol.. hopefully.. we'll always be friends forever and ever and ever and celebrate not only chinese new year tgt but everything else...mayb next year my turn to gif angpows.. muahahahahaaha love yall tc.. enjoy the pics

zOmg

2008-02-18T05:48:00.000-08:00

ITS OFFICIAL~~!!! ive finally passed my driving test.!!!!
ok its abit late cos that was 3 weeks ago... but fuck.. PASSED..... oOhH...=pPp any hot babes out there want a lift jus gif me a call ok!!!???? wooohooooo....
this was a conversation i had on my test day wif another dude.

MAN: first time ah?
ME : yeah... dam nervous sia
MAN: dont worry.. this my 3rd try.. u wont pass one la...
ME : orh okok....

After the test results... a beaming foong came out of the room..

MAN: sian ah fail again.. u leh?
ME : sian ah.. dont know wad car to buy... LOL....

woohoo.... bet that man felt like shit... i get a kick out of pissing the shit outta pple...

anyways.. take care everyone.. hugz

love-less

2008-02-05T15:01:00.000-08:00

here i am.. suffering from non-stop puking and mind-numbing tummyache... while my parents are sleeping peacefully in their bedroom.. im stuffing pills in my mouth to stop me from getting "ass burn" again.. no one cares anymore.. haha.. all i want is a hug.. or a simple.. " are u ok? " but no...... nth like that anymore..

i remember when i was young.. my mom would always buy me ribena or cook me fish porridge whenever im sick.. memories like that flood my mind and bring tears to my eyes.. its the simple things that pple do that really touches me.. instead of doing extravagant stuffs .. sigh.. y cant things be like before? haf they given up on me? they dont even scold me when i smoke anymore...

sometimes at night when i keep tossing and turning in bed.. i start thinking of all my happy memories i had as a child.. not to forget the sad memories too... but i guess overall i did haf a great childhood.. pampered and adored by all my relatives.. sigh.. i guess the one that pampered me the most was my ahma.. sad to say.. she passed away on the 3rd of august 2003.. during her funeral i cried like a baby.. it really hurts to lose someone u love so dearly.. and i regretted not visiting her as often as she hoped i would..

i always used to say... ah ma.. dont smoke.. very smelly.. LOL.. lookie here.. now im a hardcore smoker.. wopie doo.. sigh.. how ironic things always turn out to be.. ah ma.. i miss u.. hopefully.. i'll be able to join u soon.. =p

hmmm

2008-01-22T08:34:00.000-08:00

Alot of pple have recently said that ive changed alot.. be it.. "ure no longer as cheerful as u used to be".. or "how come u dont chill out with us anymore"..... or wadeva.. but seriously .. think abt it urselves... are u sure im the one that has changed? and not u guys? wadeva it is.. i hope time will heal everything and if ive done anything to offend anyone? im sorry and i sincerely apologise..

but honestly... looking back... i dont know how i can face u guys la..and i also dont know how u guys can face me.. 2007 has honestly been uber fucked... to the core.. wadeva it is.. its already 2008.. so lets work towards a brighter future.. tgt.. hopefully..

p.s DAD IM GONA PROVE U WRONG!!!!!!!

filled to the brim

2008-01-15T03:03:00.000-08:00

i feel like a can of coke that has been shaken a few times. ready to explode when the top of me has been opened. been keeping too many tings inside of me when i shud haf spoken up.. wad i am now is a can of shaken coke being put back into the fridge. waiting for the next victim of a prank.

sometimes i stand at the road side and wonder what it would feel like to be knocked down by one of the fast moving cars.. would i feel the pain? would i die instantly? would anyone cry for me... if i didnt die.. i wished that i would haf lost my memory because there are so many tings that i rather not remember..

memories that cause me so much hurt and pain ... memories that cause me to cry myself to sleep sometimes.. i really hate to appear happy when im not and appear to laugh when actually i feel like crying.. call me emo or wadeva but this is how i really feel and i dont need consolation from anyone..

if i die.. would i go to heaven? i doubt it.. ive done so much evil in this life.. if i could.. i would start this life all over again.. make it more worthwile.. make life more enjoyable.. start studying hard..at tis point in time.. all i see myself in 10 years time is sweeping the roads in orchard road.. or worse... begging in the streets of orchard..

p.s im sorry =)

T_T

2008-01-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

im still thinking about it.. yes i am...
i lost to a small boy for gold medal... its true...
ok.. he has 29 pins handicap but thats no excuse.. i missed a fucking spare and lost to that asshole by 3 pins.. fuck.. am i destined to be a loser my whole life? fuck man.. i feel totally exhausted... mentally.. im giving up on everything.. life..bowlin.. love... friends.. family... there jus aint enuff in my heart and mind to take it in anymore... i'll jus concentrate on my studies... and fuck everything else... its jus too tiring... looks like 2008 isnt my year... fuck ............................................................................................................................

this world doesnt have a place for someone like me

new year 2008

2008-01-06T16:11:00.000-08:00

The welcoming of the new year was celebrated at lesley's new pad.. it was a really cool place although the place is indeed a bit difficult to find parking space.. lol.. never the less.. it couldnt dampen our happy spirits as we welcomed the new year with a bang!!! lol.. lets haf a recap.. 2007 was indeed a year where many events took place.. first of all. it was the year i finished my national service.. lol.. hmm.. i made new friends.. lost some.. travelled to places... meet new people.. lol.. actually it was pretty fun la.. hope 2008 will be as fun as last year.. !! anyway hope u guys enjoyed the pics!! love yall!!

christmas 2007

2007-12-27T04:35:00.000-08:00

christmas 2007 was a blast.. lol.. cept for the absence of a few people... which kinda dampened the mood.. well once again.. i got high at riverine.. lol... hmmm countdown was quite cool... i had a can of spray.. which i unleashed on everyone lol... hahaha.. christmas day itself was spent at my hse... where we exchanged gifts and had quite a christmas spread of food.. only thing lacking was santa and a christmas tree.. other than that... i had fun.. lol.. =) thanks everyone for the presents.. i lurveee them... lol.. hopefully all this giving and loving spirit lasts longer.. than there wont be more quarrels and fights... anyway merry xmas everyone ... i love all of u..

im back........

2007-12-27T04:29:00.000-08:00

With all the fun and excitement of the year coming to an end and christmas around the corner.. i hardly had time to blog... or hardly wanted to blog.. first there was the annual milo trip that we all loved... jus that this year was abit different because some bros had NS commitments so they couldnt make it.. nevertheless.. it was great fun..we had ramly burgers and all that... lol.. smoking was great fun too... and we pratically got drunk/high every night.. lol... well.. here are some pics.. enjoy..

=(

2007-12-07T20:57:00.000-08:00

Everybody wants to be loved
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold onto
Just like a helpless child, yeah
Can you whisper in my ear
To let me know it's alright

=)

2007-12-07T20:15:00.001-08:00

To: my bfam
after the talk last night that we had.. i hope we have a better understanding of each other.. i want u to know that we'll always be bros no matter wad happens.. i know how it feels to lose a friend... ive jus lost one.. and the feeling isnt very good.. anyways.. as we were saying.. although there is a barrier between us now.. i hope in time to come.. we can break the wall and get back to where we used to be... and it hurts to see u so sad man.. so lets do all we can to get the happy u back ok? i dont care wad others say la... u will always be my bro and i will always haf u back no matter what..

To: everyone
ive always tried everything to make everyone around me happy but sometimes no matter what i do... some of the times some things just wont end up the way i want it to be.. i guess thats jus life but honestly.. i am really really so so tired of everything...im just... human too

my biggest regret

2007-12-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

when i was younger i loved to eat... KFC.. MAcs.. wadeva u name it... i would eat it.. i thought that life was short.. so i mite as well enjoy while i can.. it was only when i grew older that i realise how stupid i was.. sigh.. but it was too late.. i was the "resident" ah pui.. or fatty... those nicknames were only the not so mean ones that people hook me up with...

i used to think... wads wrong with being fat? but apparently everything is wrong.. u get tired easily.... sickness all comes along with it.. and worse of all. the mockery..

sometimes i really wish i wasnt fat... somehow it seems that others really hate fat pple.. fat pple werent meant to wear nice clothes.. fat pple werent meant to be happy.. fat pple take up more space... fat pple are smelly.. fat pple are annoying and ugly..

sometimes i wish...sometimes i pray.. that god would gif me another chance to start all over again

what's brewin?!?

2007-11-30T22:39:00.000-08:00

so many things have happened the past month i find it really hard to absorb
i wish things werent the way they were... i feel like its a dream
but i woke up this morning and realised that it wasnt.. and it only made me feel like shit

i wish time could rewind and i wish i could haf been there..
i know it wouldnt haf made a difference because most of the time... it seems im not there even though im there...
sometimes i wish i never knew any of u because i hate being hurt..
but its impossible because its cos of u guys that i feel loved..
i guess time will heal everything but i know its gona be hard..
why mus love be so complicated and hurtful?
why mus friends lie to one another?
why mus bros fight each other?
Is it my destiny to let pple walk all over me?
im sick and tired of all this .. i wish i could end it all now...

something i haf to say

2007-11-27T12:26:00.000-08:00

my brother/s please pay attention
ive had it with all these tension
ive had it with all the lies and deceit
ive lost.. i admit defeat
i cant deal with all the pain i feel
it hurts so much i dont know if its real
i wanna cry but not in ur face..
mayb we shouldnt haf became bros in the first place..
i trusted u with all my heart..
but honestly haf u played ur part?
When i look at u i dont know wad to do or say..
i guess its jus that price i hafta pay
well guess wad im leaving for someplace better
a place without pain or tears..
but i guess ure rite .. i gotta face my fears..
but i shouldnt haf liked her in the first place..
it was impossible.. shes an angel and i.. a demon
rite now i feel like ive got no friends... NONE
not even a single one
u took wad matters most in my life
made fun of me and stabbed me with a knife...
i dont need u... i dont need u...

s.a.d.n.e.s.s

2007-11-24T13:14:00.000-08:00

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心你是否能够要得回

do true friends really exist?

lol...

2007-11-17T10:31:00.001-08:00

lol.... dam funny la... laugh leh.... LOL =(

sigh

2007-11-15T09:33:00.000-08:00

i was at club jus now and overheard the adults talking.. apparently they kinda discriminate our grp of friends... apparently one of us is mistaken for a thief... one likes to borrow money... one likes to gamble alot.... one has a bad boy image and blah blah blah... it really is quite disheartening to hear this kinda stuff and i really dont know why pple haf that impression of us.. we're jus a bunch of good kids that are ocassionally naughty and playful... adults jus dont understand us...

lots of times i hear adults telling their children not to hang out wif me... or to get too close to me because i somewhat potray a bad boy image... thats how i am wad... deep down im really jus a nice boy that everyone misunderstands....sigh... it really sucks la.... sian...

happy birthday big nose!~!~!!!!!

2007-11-12T15:47:00.001-08:00

happy birthday howie bro!!~!~ although its not ur birthday yet... im wishing u first.. lol... anyway its been great having u as a bro although at times i really feel like slapping ur face.. LOL...but sometimes when im down .. ure really the only few friends that i can talk to and somehow i can feel better about myself and look at things at a more positive angle..anyway u know i love u and u'll always be in the grp although i always say ure OUT... lol... anyway happy 21TH LOL... bros for life....

sammie boy's party!!!

2007-11-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

sammie boy's party was a blast... lol.. shall not wish him happy birthday yet as his birthday is on the 25th... anyway.. food was great..atmosphere was great.... had fun takin loads of pics and chilling out wif everyone who were greatly dressed....oOoH... anyway thanks for the invite sammie boy.. had alot of fun... GREAT to haf u back in singapore as well... miss all the times we spent together leh... =pPpP and sorry i left early... but u know i LOVE U.. forever and ever babe... LOL.. cheers... we won deal or no deal...

happy birthday jiak lor meee

2007-11-10T09:45:00.001-08:00

happy birthday jemmy boy..... i hope u haf outgrown the bra we bought for u last year... lol... anyway may all ur dreams and wishes come true okie dokie? =pPpp anyway u and meiru look really sweet together... *so jealous* LOL.... no la.. anyway hope u and meiru haf a fairy tale ending.. once again.. happy birthday jeremy

happy birthday alexius pek cai wang

2007-11-04T10:05:00.001-08:00

hey alexius pekkie bro... happy 19th birthday!~ im so proud of u man... we've been bros for so long.. lol.. u will always be my bigger and taller Little bro.. hahaha.. thanks for all the fun times dat we've shared and had... u know i'll always haf ur back no matter wad problems there may be.. big or small.. anyways.. enjoy ur special day... =pPpP bros for life

happy birthday dad!!!!!

2007-11-03T12:24:00.000-07:00

happy 57th dad!!! u know i love u although u always nag nag nag... wah sometimes cant take it ahhhh... LoL .. anyway... im not gona tell alex u gg bernice HAHAHA.... shhhhhh!~!~!~!~~~~ anyway thanks for being such a great dad man... love u forever and ever... u rock my socks.... ;)

happy burfday meg!~!~

2007-10-31T00:02:00.001-07:00

yo meg meg meg!~!!~~ happy happy birthday!~!~ 19 years young already!~!~ must be feeling great... lol.. may all ur dreams and wishes come true kk.. =pPpp anyways although we hardly hang out nowadays u know i still lurveeee u.. Lol.. take good care ok!! study hard hahaha.. hmmm... oh ya.. please eat more.. ure becoming thinner dan ele..hugz muackz.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. enjoy this day man.. its once in a lifetime that u turn 19.. !~!~!~!~!~!~~~! cheers xoxo

happy birthday wanying!~!~

2007-10-30T10:48:00.001-07:00

happy birthday bernice!~!~

bernice's birthday was a smash.. had so much fun singing ktv with everyone... except some asses that went to play pool.. haha took many funny videos of howie singing... dam zhai.. LOl.. anyway i wanna wish bernice happYness and Bliss forever and ever... ;) hope u like the dress... u look HORDE in it.. er i mean hawt... hot.. well u get the picture.. lol.. anyways ur singing rocks my socks.. wo ai feng le... nice song.. lol =PppPp

happy birthday alex!~

2007-10-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to u my bro!~~!~ known u for almost 8 years already.. it has been my honour to haf u as a friend and bro and i will always cherish u for the rest of my life... TTC brother.. lol... i love u loads man.. =PpP peace out.. oh.. laigek and jasmine says hi to u.. LOL

A PROMISE

2007-10-25T12:12:00.000-07:00

As time passes by each day.. more and more pple keep asking me wad ive been doing.. when am i gona start studying.. lol.. sigh.. i dont even haf the ans to that myself.. once again im stuck wif 2 choices.. 1 is to study in SIM and the other is to return to Aust.. cant bear to leave singapore although it is boring as fuck... its the pple here that make me wanna stay.. i dont wanna leave my parents again.. lol.. they are not exactly young anymore.. and i really honestly do wanna spend more time with them.. but on 2nd thought.. i haf to study hard and be able to support them when im older.. i haf to... i want to..

i dont care whether we are as rich as paris hilton.. or the sultan of brunei.. all i know is... whatever i want.. i am given it.. no matter how absurd my requests are.. my parents still try their best to gif me the best.. for that.. i am very thankful to them.. and this is my motivation to do well.. to excel in everyting i am gona do.. i do want to gif my future kids the same kinda life that my parents have provided for me.. ive already wasted too much time idling ard.. doin nothing.. next year onwards.. its all gona b different.. i promise.. i love u mom and dad..

COME ON FOONG U CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!

fOoNg aka destroyerz

lol... when we were young hahahaha

2007-10-23T07:05:00.000-07:00

LOL...those pics were taken ages ago man... see if u can reconise anyone..(i was flipping thru photo albums and manage to see those) haha lol.. sigh.. time really passes by so so fast... we're all adults already... been thru so much together... sometimes i wish that i can go back in time.... jus to experience all the innocence and carefree life again.. lol.. sigh.. but i guess this is life la..

doesnt it suck how our life is already planned for us before we come into this world. study... NS.. work... retire.. wait to die.. lol.. k la..thats a bit crude.. but basically its like that la.. anyways.. lets cherish wad we haf now.. othrwise we will regret in future.. haha.. do check out the pics again hahahaha !!

foongy out!

BBFL

2007-10-19T09:33:00.001-07:00

Destiny made us friends
Fate made us bros...
Life would definately be hard without all of u
u guys thought me how to act.. how to feel...
we've all had our ups.. we had our downs...
there were moments.. we even became clowns
But i'll never regret a single moment i spent wif y'all
because no matter how short i am.. u guys made me feel tall
u guys never made fun of me...
u guys showed love.. not many pple could see..
For this i thank all of u... for being my friends.. my bros...
cheers... ;)

best time of my life

2007-10-13T21:24:00.000-07:00

To the prefect who later became my friend...
To the friend who later became my bro...

hey bro wassup? we've been bros for abt 15 years alrdy...lol.. still remember u used to cut my queue in Pri sch... dan i would say " eh dont cut queue leh" dan u would rudely reply.. "eh... im a prefect" . lol.. those were the innocent days of us man.. where u sat in front of the book shop and played chinese chess with those other nerds..

we would move on to seperate ways in sec sch.. u went on to RI while i went on to ACS(BR). But it was destined for u and i to become bros as we met again during sec 1. Apparently both of us selected bowling as a cca.. from then on we kept in contact all the way to sec 2. During sec 2.. we entered National Age Group together wif kenneth and nai kiang.. haha.. although we didnt do very well.. we managed a gold medal for the team event.. lol...

Moving on..... i tink it was during the start of sec 3 that i picked up smoking.. i still remember u were disgusted with the fact that i was smoking.. lol.. where were we? oh ya.. novena MRT.. i started smoking in front of u and u were dam sad.. lol.. dan u took my pack of fags and threw it away....that same year we went to milo.. apparently i was in a bad mood or some shit.. u called me and i yelled at u.. haha.. u must haf been quite dulan la.. but i did something quite gay.. i went to buy a necklace for u.. lol... sigh...

ironically.. a few years after i started smoking .. u did too... lol... and even began heavy drinking.. might haf been due to the stress as u were losing heavily in soccer... but im glad those betting days are over now...
anyways.. ive seen u cry several times.. but none as bad as the one during elvina's birthday where howie and i exchanged blows... bro.. sometimes this really proves that u love us alot and im really glad that i haf u in my life.. for good times and for bad...

We went Hk this year together.. that was fun ass... we managed to do what we enjoy.. jeong gundam... u drinking and me porning.. lol... but that was fun la.. would definately love to go overseas wif u again man....
Well not only Hk.. we actaully went genting together as well.. definately love the part where u me jeong and keith sat at the pizza place for almost 5 hrs and talk cock thruout the whole night.. lol...

anyway wad im realli trying to say is i really am thankful for having u in my life... be it the "ah du" singing or wadeva.. lol... thanks for being my friend and my bro...

Keep smiling .. keep shining.. knowing u can always count on me.. for sure.. thats wad bros are for..........

Bros forever.. bad bois for eternity..

past present and future

2007-10-12T11:34:00.000-07:00

To the bro that was always here for me (spritually)

lol.. thanks for always being here for me sam.. when times were tough and rough.. i knew i would always count on u to help me out... be it lending money in times of need.. or giving me advice... lol.. i remember we met in sec 1 when we joined the bowling team of acs br.. haha... always thought u were the cool one .. so i never made the move to become a better friend to u...but somehow we managed to become friends... and gradually got closer when u joined club... but i guess we really bonded when we were in australia together...

those were happy times that i long for again and can never get back because lately ive been really emo/sad/disappointed/negative... the list goes on... but its all because of u that i really pull myself together..

there were several times where i almost broke down mentally but u were there to comfort me and tell me to "chillz".
tHose times we played bball in palmerston will always be in my memories... all those niggaz... all the and1 tricks.. lol.. where i played SG.. u PG .. Jeong PF and sardgu C ... lol..and i still remember there was once we fought ovr smth trival

while we were in australia but got back on good terms the next day...
honestly... i'm really glad fate and destiny decided that we became bros... i couldnt ask for mroe.. altough.. i am quite dulan that u missed several of my birthdays already.. lol.. but i know u were somewhere out there praying that i am safe and happy..

while u are in australia and i am in singapore.. i really treasure those times when u return for hols and hang out at my place till late where we jus chit chat the whole night... if i could control time.. i would definately go back there jus to spend more time wif u... lol.. this is sounding kinda gay but u knowi lub chu bro.. lol

Anyway abt wad we talked abt... im still confused and dont know wad to do... although it hurts me all the time... i really hope that 1 day i can really get it.. or worse come to worse.. face up to reality...

thanks for always telling me im not fat.. im cool.. and stuff like that.. it really brighens my day.... and telling me not to waste my time anymore and go study... sigh.. words can say how much i treasure u as a friend as a bro... well... i cant wait for u to come back.. we can chill out like always... thanks for always being there for me... fo shizzle dizzle i'll bake and sizzle ur nizzle.. =p

bros for eternity

bo lui liao

2007-10-11T12:38:00.000-07:00

My fav part of the year is coming already!!!! haha... unfortunately.. ive grown fatter but my wallet... thinner.. lol.. birthdays all gona come week after week.. sigh... honestly no money already... heres a break down of wads to come...

Alex- 27th oct
Bernice - 30th october
Meg - 31st october
DAD - 3rd nov
Pek - 5th nov
Jem- 7 th nov
Howie - 14th nov
Sam- 25th nov
Andrew - 2nd dec

sian ahhhh... how to survive? nvm... im looking forward to it already... chilling out wif friends.. taking loads of pics... drinking loads of booze.. smoking loads or reds... muahahaha.... sigh.. i jus remembered after that would b christmas.. means spending money again.. alamak... "money no enuff" haha.. went shopping today and couldnt find anything nice to buy.. thats the worst part.. if i dont buy now.. my money would be used up soon... just when i wanted to save money.. i am bombarded with all these birthdays... well...lets jus pray i budget my spendings well... anyway.. happy birthday in advance to all u birthdayerz... hahaha... love all of u man... bros and bad bois for life..=x cept for meg and bernice cos they are girls.. lol.. but i still love u guys!!

foOngy oUT!!!!

roses are red... violets are blue.. honey is sweet.. so are u

2007-10-06T13:46:00.000-07:00

Looking back and thinking abt those times...
Did really bring tears to my eyes..
We were like 2 birds...
Dancing freely in the skies
Freedom was what u wanted..
Freedom was what u crave..
I didnt get a chance to say i love u
It wasnt cos i was not brave
I wanted to love u from a distance..
But u took away.. in an instance..
Leaving me in the lurk
I guess we werent meant to be..
Fairy tale endings.. were not for u and me..

sick & tired... =(

one last kiss

2007-10-05T10:33:00.000-07:00

For everything there must come a last...
A last sec..a last hour.. a last min... or a last day
A last drink.. a last coke.. a last tequila or even a last beer
A last love a last kiss.. a last hug..or even a last kiss goodbye
Or even the last words written on a page...

But the worst thing is ur last breath...
Because wad follows next is surely ure death

My problems wont last forever.. hopefully someday someone can put the pieces of it back together.. =pp

fwen fordeva

2007-10-03T09:43:00.000-07:00

People always say friendship is a bond of trust and love... care and honesty... but that isnt always the case for friends nowadays.. u never know who to trust and who not to..

u never know when ure so called "best friend" is backstabbing u or talking shit behind ur back.. y cant everything just go back to the way it was when we were all young and innocent?

Remember the times when we first stepped into kindergarden? haha.. we were all so innocent. Phrases like..." i dont friend you already" haha.. were the most common things that children said.. i bet they still do it...

Sad to say... all these simplicity in life slowly evolved into a world filled with sin and lies... some friends argue with u over the smallest things like money or girls... or they abandon u because they haf found someone else more fun.. deep down inside i know that i dont haf many good friends... some pple appear to be my buddy and friend but deep down they hate me to the core.. haha

But i guess it was fate and destiny that we became friends... and time will tell us how long we can be friends... hopefully.. friends forever.. badboys for life =)

sickened...

2007-10-01T15:14:00.000-07:00

Sick and disgusting.. is wad u pple say when u look at those pics... but theres a very good reason why i put those pics up.... pple all over the world are starving.. especially in Africa.. How they get by everyday is a daily issue to them.. whilst we're here.. thinking abt when the next party is gona be...what shud we wear... will there be enuff booze...

In reality...these pple are starving their ases off.. needing food and help.. i mean.. a piece of bread will make them super happy already.. compared to us... most of us wont be happy unless we get KFC or MAcs.. or something.. even worse.. some pple enjoy shark fins and abalone.. delicacies that these pple will never ever get to enjoy..all these pple want is to get food to live and hopefully get to see their families 1 more day.. or jus to see the sun for another day...

While these pple out there starving.. we get all sorts of pple that complain that they are too fat... especially celebrities all over the world.. be it hollywood or wadeva..losing weight and gaining weight just to get good roles..sigh.. wads the world coming to? and then u get pple that try to lose weight just to stay "IN" .. jus cos everyone else is skinny dan they also wanna be skinny..

i know its ironic that im saying all these skinny pple while im so fat.. im not jealous or wadeva.. it jus saddens me that... some pple haf everything and they are just not satisfied... i walk into my kitchen now and i see all sorts of food... HELL.. these africans dont even haf a kitchen to walk in to... =(

the way i see it... u never know when u mite pass away or wadeva.. so y not live life to the fullest..life is short enuff already.. =(

missing u already

2007-09-26T13:19:00.000-07:00

where shud i begin? haha.. i remember it was April 12th 2005 i got enlisted into civil defence to start my NS .. haha.. wasnt too excited abt it but it was part and parcel of every male singaporean's life.. hahaha... sad part was.. i didnt know a single person.. and as u all already know.. civil defence is made up of mostly malays.. which caused a language barrier for me... thankfully.. most of them could speak english too.. haha..

I remember the first day i enlisted.. we were brought to shave our heads.. haha.. by fellow NSmen.. and we stil had to pay $2 .. it was kinda rip off la.. but.. oh well.. anyway after that.. the Officer in charge said that our batch of NSmen didnt haf to stay in.. which was good in the sense that i could enjoy the luxury of sleeping home everyday and still get to go out and do stuff. the bad part was that i had to travel all the way to yio chu kang every morning.. anyway .. i was posted to be a clerk and for the first 3 weeks.. we were taught how to use Microsoft word.. excel .. blah blah blah..

After 3 weeks... we were posted to different braches of civil defence all over singapore.. thankfully... i got posted to telok kurau camp.. which was like a 2 min walk from my home.. haha.. things didnt go as well as i planed because ...everyday when i got to camp.. the other older NSmen would bully me.. take my cigarettes.. tie me up and shave my head and stuff.. i thought as time passed.. things would get better.. but unfortunately it didnt.. anyways.. i complained to my officer and i got posted to Paya Lebar Fire Station..

First impression was that the place was very "family oriented". everyone seemed to love each other and everyone was super friendly... especially to me.. because i was in charge of the "leave". If any NSman wanted to take leave.. he would hafta go thru me.. haha..

Everything seemed to be fine from there... my daily activites would roughly be... arrive in camp at 8 am.. sleep in bunk till 830.. go for a smoke... do some office work... check files.. go for a smoke.. hang out with the storemen( my best buddies) go for break.. do more work... smoke more.. lunch... play pool.. sing ktv..smoke... sleep... go home..

After about 6 months.. there came a new officer.. his name was LTA shah.. he was about the meanest asshole u can find... well.. he promoted me to chief clerk though .. hahaha.. TO GIF ME MORE WORK!!! haha.. anyway as time passed by.. he turned out to be one of my good friends... whom i can always rely on to get me outta trouble.. and to gif me off days... and leave.. hahaha.. i also became a bowler for civil defence.. and i did win some competitions.. haha..

Shortly after that came my 2 new clerks.. they were freaking lazy la... but i guess they did teach me alot of things.. and did make life seem alot easier because they shared my work load.. although sometimes i had to work OT .. and they didnt.. but i guess... it was about time i learnt some responsibilities instead of being such a lazy spoilt brat.. haha..

Time seemed to pass by quicker as i began to enjoy doing my job.. i did get scolded alot for being tardy in my work though.. i was always leaving things on my desk and having it taken away and stuff.. haha but.. i always managed to do my job.. i tink.. haha.. anyway soon MIKE came along.. we hit it off straight away and became super close buddies.. hahaha..

soon enuff.. my 2 years of NS was over.. and although im glad its over.. i sure miss those good ol days where i could jus relax in the office with my buddies.. talking cock the whole day... praying that our officers are on leave.. or MC.. hahaha.. MOst pple say NS sucks but i guess... thats cos they havent been thru it.. once they haf.. they would find that its something that not many pple can go thru... its a lifetime experience.. u get to meet pple of all walks of life... diff backgrounds..

Up to now.. i still get excited when i see an ambulance or Fire engine zoom pass me... and i also miss the sound of the siren going off when there is a fire call.. and LTA shah sliding down the pole... hahaa.. cool cool cool =PpP

go away..

2007-09-25T10:42:00.000-07:00

i hate it when u ignore me...
i hate it when u talk to others but not me
i hate it when u drink more dan u can
i hate it when ure drunk dont let me give u a hand

other than that, ure the best thing that ever happened to me
No doubt about it.. when im with u i feel so free..
i reallie wanna hold u tight
And honestly treat u right..
And never let u out of my sight

Please dont ever go away...
i wont let u..

good ol days.... pls come back

2007-09-22T11:31:00.000-07:00

THese few months saw many changes in my life... since april.. i haf completed my NS. Huge step for many young singaporean males.. haha.. i reallie miss those times where we could jus hang out at sicc playing blind man in the locker room... or jus playing soccer in the old tennis courts and getting chased out all the time.. haha..after that we would just hide in the alley and bowl or some shit.. haha... haiz... good ol days.. all we had to worry abt was school... which wasnt much of a prob.. haha.. miss school also..

Even though jeongy and i went overseas .. im glad we didnt drift apart.. its reallie heart warming that we haf friends that care so much for us and... honestly.. i already treat u guys as my family..

These few months saw 2 new friends joining us.. mainly ashley and sharon... i reallie hope we all live up to the famous words of..... care bear.. " friends forever" hahaha.. not even sure if care bear said that.. who cares..

anyway... life has been pretty sweet for me la.. travelling here and there.. having fun everyday.. but honestly . there has been alot of hating going on.. no names mentioned la.. but i reallie hope all this stops soon.. come on la.. we practically saw each other grew up.. from young kids to sensible adults.. guys.. its honestly a very hard thing to come by..we prolly know each other better dan we know ourselves..

anyway... im kinda running out of time .. so yeah.. i love all of u... forever and ever and ever *foOngy OUT!!

对不起

2007-09-17T11:01:00.000-07:00

I'm sorrie for the times u cried..
All the pain and loneliness u felt inside
I'm sorrie for the way things are..
And the selfishness that you've endured
I'm sorrie for the time we've lost
And for all the pain that i've cost
I'm sorrie im not that man that u deserve
This has been the hardest lesson learnt
I'm sorrie i was there to show..
The deepest love you'll ever know
I'm sorrie for the empty space.
That u had to fill in my place
But here i promise and i vow..
To love and care forever .. here and now
=p take care guys
Sorie if i wasnt the friend that u all needed

dreams are for believers

2007-09-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

I sleep in the clouds..
Dream in the sky
I'll keep dreaming...
As life passes me by
I tink my dreams keep me sane
A life filled with hope..
A life without pain
I know someday i'll hafta wake up
Into this horrible nightmare
But i knowi'll always be safe in my wonderland
Cos in my dreams.. theres onli u and i =p

faster than the speed of light...

2007-09-13T06:30:00.000-07:00

i've recently found out that ive had a disease for quite a while.. but i dont know how to tell anyone.. I've got to get my act together .. get well soon otherwise i wont haf a future to look forward too.. its killing me slowly and i dont know what to do.. thinking about it... reallie makes me feel... heartbroken and disheartened.. if only i had done my parents proud while i could... i mean.. all these times failing exams and stuff.. sigh.. brings back alot of memories..i remember the day i got my PSLE results.. my dad jus looked at me and i could see tears forming at the corner of his eyes. Once again.. his son had failed him terribly.. i decided from then on.. i had to work real hard... i got into sec1 express but on condition that i bowled for the school.. in order to do that.. i had to go training everyday after school.. hence i didnt study much and dropped to "normal" stream. Once again i had disappointed my parents.. but there was hope.. i could go back to express in sec 3. But as u all know.. i didnt manage to do it.. as i got more involved in bowling... didnt do well in sec sch and dad sent me overseas to further my studies but i guessed i fucked that up as well... Anyway... there is no cure for the disease that im carrying at the moment.. im at a loss as well.. sigh.. if only time didnt pass the quickly.. i want to go back being a small boy with no worries at all.. i used to carry my Ninja Turtle toy wherever i went.. hahaha.. i mus say.. ive had a blessed childhood... got to travel first class everywhere we went.. some adults havent eeven sat an aeroplane their whole lives.. sigh.. if only time could stop and i could savour this moment that ive had.., or having.. but if i go.... i would reallie miss u alot.. no doubt about it.. anyways.. guys.. take care.. cherish every moment u guys haf with ur friends .. family and loved ones..

start anew?

2007-09-11T01:17:00.000-07:00

I thought i didnt love u..

But now i know i do...

When u smiled at me ..

My heart melted..

It was frozen for far too long

I wondered if i called..

Would u answer the phone?

Cos i jus spoke to u

In a very platonic tone

Would u avoid me if i said i love u

Would u distant urself..

Now i wouldnt know..

Nothing else matters

When i look at u..

You are happy..

You are in love

But not with me

BUt i am happy..

Because u are happy.. =p

even medicine cant help.. haha

2007-09-06T05:15:00.000-07:00

你每次对着我笑

你的笑里面有毒药

我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药

可能你从来没感觉到

最好你永远感觉不到

爱上你越来越无可救药

一天一天越来越无可救药

一生一次爱你到无可救药

我才慢慢体会到

幸福是被爱的人需要

Sigh.... sadness dwells upon me again.. foongy out

never like before

2007-09-02T21:50:00.000-07:00

Never haf i been lonelier before..

sadness overpowers the happyness i potray

Lonely are the nights..

Loney are the days...

Trust me im lonely.. in so many ways.. =(

Lonely are the seasons

Lonely are the years

I tink of u... and it brings back tears..

I hate this place..

I hate my Life...

All i haf is my Parang.. er.. i mean knife.. =(((

Thanks for being here with me..

i'll always remember the moments we share

Sadly it seems u dont even care...

Anymore.... =(

lost... and never found

2007-08-29T10:05:00.000-07:00

I've given up on loving u

I cant take the pain u put me thru

Deep down i know the feelings will always b there

Mayb one day u will care

At least for now i can hide my pain

Cos if i dont.. i mite go insane

Our time apart has made me realize

There is no 2nd chance when it comes to guys

The many excuses that i haf told..

Are getting kinda lame and old

We hardly talk anymore

Its like a room to ur life.. u've slammed the door

It hurts to feel that you've shut me out

Is this Wad love is all about?

down and out..foOngy =((

food for thought

2007-08-23T14:36:00.000-07:00

haha thats not me but i dont mind looking like him.. wad im trying to say is ... like him.. ive been doing alot of thinking.. sigh.. wad do i really want out of life..? To be honest.. ive been wasting my time ever since i ORD.. never actually thought of wad to do and all... but after talking to sammie boi that day.. i really started thinking..

I dont only want to be rich.. i wanna be more successful dan my parents!! So i can provide for my future wife and kids... =Pp

Sammie BOY: u need drive and ambition.. if u have drive but no ambition.. no use.. u got ambition but no drive.. even worse.. u gotta have both..

Thanks bro.. im gona remember that forever.. anyway after talking to sam that day.. he reallie got me thinking... education is creating a path for ur career.. without education.. u haf no path at all.. so the least we shud all do is get a degree.. hmmm.. times running out for all of us.. not young already.. our parents wont be able to support us for much longer.. sigh..

so many things to do.. so little time.. +___+ haha.. anyway im still considering between studying in Melbourne or SIM.. because recently ive read that SIM is offering the same course as i can do in Melbourne.. sigh.. dont know la sian.. but then again rite.. animation as a career wont get me far unless i go to hollywood and work wif pixar or some shit... but do i really want that? sigh... business ... not interested in it leh.. hotel management.. its fun until we had to do the marketing and accounting part.. haha.. aiyoooo... but i know im definately going to sign up for the property agent course.. haha.. mayb one day i'll take over mom.. and set up my own company and get it listed.. muahahah

Anyway... im reallie happie for the recent get togethers of a couple of friends..
HOWIE VS sharon
ANdrew VS suping
Jem VS meiru

im reallie happy for them.. especially jem jem.. after all those hard times trying to jio girls... after good charlotte concert mishap.. haha.. after everything.. im glad his fairy tale has a happy ending.. but this is only the start of his fairy tale.. haha love u bro..

Which got me thinking again... haha.. i looked into the mirror that day and reallie thought hard at myself... haha.. i reallie do haf that loser look haha.. honestly.. and although jem say he is more loser dan me.. we realli know who the real loser is.. haha.. sigh.. ok lets see.. 1. im fat 2. im stupid. 3. im lazy.. 4. im irritating. 5. cant drive. 6. cant study. 7. cant bowl. 8. im ugly 9. waste money 10. NO MONEY !!!

haha .. need i say more? =) sometimes i wish i wasnt brought into this cruel world la.. and although my dad doesnt say it.. i know he is quite disappointed wif me la.. cant tell.. im like... hopeless..haha.. well.. i bet he wished he wore a condom that time.. hahaha.. =)) nvm la.. anyway my mom also said b4.. she never wanted me.. she wanted a girl hahaha..

ANYWAY SHOUT OUTS TO MY BROS/SIS

Andrew... thanks for saying wad u did in genting.. i'll always remember that.. i still remember and i tink abt it everyday.. if u cant remember this is wad u said..

ANDREW: although foong will never get a girl because of the way he is... at least he is not showing a different side of who he is... who he is ... is wad he is.. !!! anyway bro.. i love u more than the coke i ever drank or the beer u ever drank.. TAH!!!!!!!!!

HOWIE... thanks for always pang sehhing us... haha.. no shit dude.. if it wasnt for u.. we wont realise that true friends exists.. i mean.. we're the true friends..not u

Alex.. thanks for always bring fun and laughter into my life.. dota and WOW.. oh ya and fishing.. and i hope we are still on the peace treaty.. hmm if u gif me 10 gold.. i'll whack jeong when he is sleeping.. hahahah

Jeremy.. GG bro.. hahahah.. no comments.. ure the best there is.. i cant ask for better..

eugene: thanks for always being so fun to be around.. dont worry abt beijing.. there are always other tournaments =pPp jackpot!!

PEk: thanks for always being the bigger and stronger little bro.. hahaha ABBNB

keith: GG I/c ... hahah.. thanks for being around when we need u .. =PpP

SAM: bro... those times in aussie reallie brought us together man.. although we had some ups and some downs.. i know u will always be here for me and i want u to know i'll always be here for u.. no shit sherlock.. i love u more than the leaves in the forest.. the fishes in the sea and the clouds in the sky.

JEONG: uncle kj!!!! haha.. thanks for being the best brother in the world.. although my bowling and cuteness outshines u... haha.. there is always time to grow back hair and become vaness again.. mayb then u can gif me a ride in ur SLK hahahaha.. dont tell me to go to ele.. i mean hell.. hahaha..

AH BEE: oi.... thanks for always having fun wif us.. honestly.. haha.. all those great times... genting hong kong and kelongs.. hahaha.. wont b fun at all if u werent there.. but remember the first time we went kelong? hah we both wished there was a helicopter to take us home

Meg: to my bestest mei in the whole world.. haha..although we dont talk much anymore.. i realy wanna thank u for always being there when i needed someone to talk to.. without u.. i wouldnt have made it thru those tough times.. haha.. anwyay.. love u always..=PpP

Sharon: dont let howie bully u.. hahahha.. and dont always bully him.. mus love each other.. =PpPp thanks for helping me with alof of stuff.. and the laptop muahaha... owe u big time!!!

Ashies: time will let us know each other better... haha... =PpP stay sweet and nice... love havin u around..

MIKE: SGT mike.. rota 1.. sect comd.. hahha.. oi.. u better go jio ashley lam faster ok.. shes getting on my nerves.. hahahaha...

Meiru: better take out ur tongue piercing.. later jem's tongue kenna stuck somehow when u guys tongue wrestle.. =P take care of jem.. hope we all get to know u better..

k guys.. its been great knowing all of u.. sorrie if i did any screwed up things to u.. fucking tired.. this post take dam long to do.. foOng OUT!!!!!!

A sinister feeling

2007-08-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

Staring at the moon... reminds me of us
The times we spent together... it all went by fast..
Looking back.. we did haf alot of great times with each other
But what i really want is to go on like this forever and ever
WHispering sweet nothings into ur ears..
Like we need nothing else as long as we have each other
I'll always remember ur perfect angelic face and smile
Even if we're apart by a Zillion miles
Sometimes i wanna hug u tight..
But i know that wouldnt seem right..
Hopefully time will let us know each other faster..
Cos i know my time is near..
And i hope u'll always remember me...
As the emo kia that brought u fear.. hahahah =_=

our love story

2007-08-19T10:14:00.000-07:00

The sun is setting right before us..

But nothing else matters as i have u by my side

Staring in the distance.. hand in hand..

I realised that we have drifted apart..

No longer as close as we used to be...

Everything has changed.. for the worse.. which just proves my worst fears

Little droplets form at the corner of my eyes..all i can do is wipe away my tears..

But i dont care anymore... this fat ship is gona sink. and i wont take u with me

U ought to haf a better life.. someone better dan me..

So here i am saying goodbye..take care...

No matter wad.. i'll always be here for u.. whenever u need me..

All u haf to do... is take a look at the sea..

i love u

MY FIRST TIME!!!!!

2007-08-15T11:20:00.000-07:00

The sky was dark
The moon was high
All alone Just her and I
Her hair so soft
Her eyes so blue
I knew just what She wanted to do
Her skin so soft
Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers Down her spine
I didn't know how But I tried my best
To place my hand On her breasts
I remember my fear
My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread Her legs apart
And when she did it I felt no shame
All at once The white stuff came
At last it's finished
It's all over now

My first time Milking a cow!
there is another first time.. but that is another story.. muahahahaha

pple do crazy things when they are in love

2007-08-13T08:59:00.000-07:00

God gave me a pair of arms to hold u when u fall..
A pair of eyes to capture ur beauty
Most importantly a heart to love u eternally
I know i realli am not anyone's hero
For all i know.. im jus a huge fat zero
but i dont care.. i know that i might never get to hold u in my arms
Or be with u when u need me..
But the times spent together is more than enough
im contented to be around u.. whether ur happy or sad
When times are good or bad..
U can count on me... no matter how tough things are
I'll be ur listening ear.. no matter where i am.. no matter how far
They say its destiny that we meet.. and fate that we became friends
Well.. i beg to differ..

tO MeEt, tO kNoW, tO LoVe and tO PaRt Is ThE SaDdEsT TaLe Of A hUmAn HeArT...

i hope

2007-08-11T22:54:00.000-07:00

My hand holding urs... looking at the sunset

Whispering sweet nothings into ur ears

This is wad i dream that maybe one day would happen

But my story is a little diff from shrek..

He's is a fairy tale... mIne is the cruel world

No one laughs at him for being fat

No one laughs at him for liking someone he shouldnt

Pple have learnt to accept that he is like this

Why cant pple accept me... for who i am...

Perhaps we are alike in certain ways..

He has good friends like donkey.. i haf good bros.... like ( u know who u guys are )

Sigh.. mayb god has better plans for me in future... i hope..

pursuit of happyness

2007-08-09T21:33:00.000-07:00

No matter where u are...
No matter how far..
i'll catch up wif u in my flying carpet
Pick u up.. fly u to the moon
i wanna live in this moment.. i dont want it to end all to soon
Let me take u wonder by wonder
Showing u the Cities good sights
And my love for u wont be blinded by the big bright lights
forever and ever ......

never ending blissfulness

2007-08-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

Time passes slower wif u by my side
U are my love and joy.. my upmost pride
My world seems incomplete without u here
At the side of my eye.. i spot a tear
All i haf is a tale as old as time
For alas .. u cannot be mine
In our fairy tale im the beast
And u are my beauty..
My last rose will forever belong to you
Even if its rosy red petals turn blue

genting trip... again.. !!

2007-08-05T09:48:00.000-07:00

Jus came back from genting abt 2 hrs ago.. haha.. we went there in a huge group.. most of the bros went.. sadly some couldnt make it.. haha.. anyway it was ash's birthday.. and we planned this like 1 month in advance.. but i was an asshole la.. haha.. couldnt make up my mind on whether i wanted to go or not.. dan in the end we booked late. haha.. my bad.. anyway the big day came.. haha.. and we left on the 3rd of august at night... at the stroke of midnight.. on the 4th of august.. we lighted up some candles and let ash blew them out..haha quite cool to blow birthday cake candles on the bus la.. but i was kinda scared that the chair would catch fire.. cos the flames were pretty big.. take a look at the pic haha..

anyway.. we arrived in genting at about 4 am in the morning and it was fucking freezing but i love love love it... hahaha.. reminds me of when i was back in australia haha.. reallie dam shiok.. anyway apparently we could onli check in at 10 plus so we stoned around for 6 hrs.. by then i was already very annoyed at everything and very cranky cos i didnt get to sleep on the bus.. haha..

anyway we finally got our rooms and we all went to get a quick nap..during which.. i tink some pple quarellled.. haha.. dan woke up at 2 plus and decided to go for lunch.. i only had like 2 hrs of sleep cos i kept waking up.. and was feeling extremely annoyed.. apparently ash wanted all of us to sit together but as i figured wad for squeeze.. so i sat somewhere else.. and andrew sat wif me... i tink she got kinda upset so she left and went back to her room after lunch. ( sorrie ash.. i reallllie am ) somehow.. everyone kinda made it look like i did something wrong anyway... we continued lunch for a while before we went to look for ash to ask if everything was ok.. she said she was ok and everyone decided to go on and play.. but i needed to charge my phone so i went back first... dan everyone came .. and ask me to hurry up.. dan i said.. u guys go ahead.. i'll join later..

dan suddenly howie came in and said.. fuck la.. u see la.. u made her upset again.. dan i said.. fuck la.. all i wanna do is charge my phone.. i mean... "wad the fuck man.. my fault? charging phone a crime? i asked ur go ahead.. no one asked ur wait.. ok lor.." everything blame me.. everyhting my fault la ah... ok? happy? everyone happy?evryting i do seems wrong.. sighhhh

anyway i stopped charging and went wif everyone to the theme park.. everyone except me went for the stupid flying thingy wadeva u call it.. here are the pics ..

after that we went to play some archery.. and after which we made our way to the haunted house... which i found out wasnt scary anymore cos they added alot of lighting inside.. haha.. but they also added 3D effects which made it quite cool.. right after the haunted house was ripleys.. wasnt very interesting la.. i jus went there like last month.. haha. hmmm.. by then it was about dinner time.. so we went for "K dinner".. which was quite cool cos we onli paid for the food and we got to sing ktv.. haha.. everyone sang dam well especially bernice and alex.. haha.. it was approx 10 pm when we left that place to go look for a place to haf some drinks.. haha.. we found a sports bar so we went inside haha.. it was pretty cool la.. haha.. but after everyone left.. andrew and i went into some club/pub wif a live band.. they were quite hot la.. but the face CMI

we only stayed for a while... dan went back to the room.. soon after jeong and keith came over and we went out for a freaking cool bitching session hahaha.. we actually managed to bitch from abt 1 am to 5 am hahaha.. dam funny.. and keith was like half drunk.. anyway after that andrew and i went back to the room and continued our conversation.. finally slept at about 6.30 am and woke up at 12 pm. went for lunch at pizza hut and finally boarded the bus home.. haha..

all in all.. it was a great trip wif andrew la.. reallie did alot of catching up wif him.. :) i love all u guys too la.. last but not least. TO ASH : sorrie ... once again.. :) hope next time we'll haf more fun.. and yeah to everyone who thought i was dam attitude... "im like this.. cant do much abt it anymore.."

To my brother from another father and mother... u and i are alike in more ways than 1... we laugh when we are sad.. try to make others happy when we are not even happy.. i know u haf alot of probs and i hope everything turns out well.. i thank god he let us meet.. and become the best of bros.. 14 years and running.. i hope it will go on forever and ever.. thanks bro!!! :) reallie had a great time wif u

bros b4 hoes

i believe......

2007-07-31T09:22:00.000-07:00

i called u my angel.. i called u my friend...
i was there when u needed a hand..
but alas.. disappointment is all i recieved
never this hard haf i been decieved
i invited u into my life...
yet wad u drove thru my heart was a knife
is there a point in going on being friends forever
wads next? a sword or a bloody cleaver
i reallie dont know wad to do when i with you.. act like nothing happened..?
while behind my back ur having ur knife sharpened..
it hurts me deeply everytime i tink of wad u did
u caused me pain and left me to die in the pit
from today onwards ... i'll never be here for you..
this is the end .. of me and u

blinded by it.......

2007-07-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

ur presence makes the roses red..

if u ever go they would jus drop dead

i so very much wanna make u happy

even when time passes and ur boobs grow saggy (er.... haha)

i will do everything i can..

even if u want me to count the sand..

i'll be all u ever need...

like how a flower needs it seed..

mayb one day we will look back and think abt this

like when one of us is deceased

but for the time being let the good times roll

even if all we do is take a midnight stroll..

i'll love u for as long as i can

i'll be here if u need me... forever and ever...

Ash ...ur welcome... get well soon

roses are red.. violets are blue.. honey is sweet. so are u

2007-07-28T09:50:00.001-07:00

sometimes god puts a tear in ur eye to let u see..
how much u mean to me..
i dont care if everyone says we're not a pair
i dont care if the uncles and aunties stare
i swear my love for u is real
i'll love u even if u grow a tail
time will reveal that we are meant to be
if hugs were water.. i would gif u the sea
if kisses were leaves.. i would gif u a tree
if love was time.. i would gif u eternity

sigh.... i hate smiling to pretend im not hurt.. i hate to giggle to show i'll be ok.. i hate to laugh after i cry.. i still love u but i'll haf to say goodbye.. (T_T)

god..pls help me

2007-07-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

i reallie dont know wad to do...
everything i do ends up like dog poo

ive reallie tried my best..

its like putting my heart to the test..

everyone is starting to detest.. me

i know i can be a fucking asshole

even to pple i dont reallie knoe

but this is me... im born like this

but i guess i only know howta make pple piss

wad can i say.. this is foong...

he's reallie one big fuck head..

slap me pls.. till my face is red...

till there is flowing blood...

dan u can end it by kicking my head in the mud

im already at my wits end..

from here on.. this is my decend..

somebody shud teach me a lesson

somebody pls gif me a reason...

y the fuck did i ever get into this mess

come on baby.. stab me in the chest..

i really wanna cry....

but alas.. my tears have run dry

TO my brother from another mother and father... i love u alot.. 14 years of broship and still going strong.. dont worry things are fine.. and im sure if u be persistent.. things will definately go ur way and god bless u in wadeva u do... keep smiling keep shining.. knowing u can always count on me.. 4 sure.. thats wad bros are for...

PS. SORRIE MEIRU

if only.....

2007-07-25T11:04:00.001-07:00

The first time i saw u... i knew u were the one

A girl that i could talk to.. someone to haf some fun

although we may not talk that much at all..

my love for u aint small...

i love the way u walk

i love the way u talk...

though u mite not notice that i care...

i do.. even more than i do my hair..

i never thought i'd find someone... as sweet lookin as u

for u i'll do anything.. even if it breaks a rule

mayb someday u will notice me...

and someday u will see

fairytales are not jus in story books.. =p

nOthIng tO sAY........................

2007-07-22T07:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes in the night... i tink of the many things we could have done.
Sometimes in the night.. i wonder how u haf friends and i haf none
things could haf worked out better if i wasnt for me
i doubt things will get any better u will see..
i cant stop thinking about how much of a sucker i haf been
it feels like im always caught in between.. sigh
all i crave for is a little more attention..
otherwise amongst us there will always b tension
sometimes.. all i want is some time to share my life wif u
but all i can manage is a ......shut up.. fuck u
i crack jokes to make u laugh..
i tell the truth u call me a bluff
wad more can i gif of me
ive given more than the entire sea.....
forget it there isnt a point...
jus slice me .. cut me..at any joint.....
the pain i feel wont hurt as much as my heart..
cos it feels like ive been torn apart.......................................... (T_T)

@#$%^&*(

2007-07-20T11:27:00.000-07:00

sometiimes i jus dont feel like talking... no mood.. call me emo but thts the way things are.. and when u make me talk.. i giv a 1 word reply and u pple tink im showing attitude.. if all of u cant stand it dont talk to me...look man this is who i am. ive jus been feeling reallie down lately and i wanna b alone.. is that a crime? do i haf to report to u? no rite.. so stop FUCKING tryin to make me involved in ur conversations.. i like to be left alone.. i know this makes me look like a loner but i guess that is pretty much true.. i dont haf many friends and dont intend to make any good ones.. so wad? life isnt about having friends.. are ur friends gona support ur family in future? friends are a liability.. especially someone.. i hope ure reading this.. look man.. i dont know wad im talking abt la.. fucking bad mood.. __( *_*) __

hOng Kong trIp wiF aH beE aNd hAmPY

2007-07-17T10:07:00.001-07:00

Hong Kong can be a very fun place to go.... thats if u go during the right season.. fuck it was like 35 degrees everyday ... i didnt even have the mood to smoke la... =PpP and fuckin china pple made it even worst.. fucking irritating bunch of fuckheads haha.. all in all it was a great trip and here is a recap of wad we did..

DAY 1

we left for the airport from my hse at 5.30 am.. arrived and checked in and.... had BK for breakfast.. jem was suppose to come but he didnt in the end.. *disappointed* hahaha. but nvm la.. no point coming all the way down jus to say hi.. bye.. hahaha... anyway flight to HK was about 3.5 hrs and when we arrived .. there was a massive queue at the immigration thingy.. theres nothing i hate more in life dan queuing.. anyway.. we checked into our hotel and dan went to walk around.. ended up at times square where we spent like 1 hr checking each and everystore out.. after that we spotted a salon and decided to go and do our hair... haha.. freaking ex i tell u.. i permed my hair and bleached it.. $255 . almost fainted.. after that we went for dinner and headed back to the hotel to snooze

DAY 2

we woke up at abt 9 am and decided to head off to look for my mom... haha.. to get money.. =Ppp anyway it took abt 45 mins by MTR and i was quite happy to see mom and some of the other pple.. had lunch at the bowling alley which was dam shiok chicken... oh ya i forgot to mention dat alex and jeong kept buying curry fishballs and other stuff from road side stalls..

after lunch we went to mongkok to do a lil shopping.. i tell u its freaking hot so i didnt even felt like bargaining.. but i did anyway... bought quite alot of stuff la.. after that hmmm.. we went back to the hotel to rest for a while dan we went out for some porridge thingy which actually was not bad... haha... we went to rest after that and gambled a bit in the rooms.. =pPp i also forgot to mention that i had like alot of vitagen... or is it yakult?

DAY 3

we had planned to go to disney land today but alex wasnt feeling very well.. so we decided to go haf dim sum wif my relative.. wah the food was freeeeakingggg shiok hahaha.. especially the charsiew... oh ya guys... apparently im the GG master.. dont know la.. they all crazy want.. especially alex and jeong.. cant stop hitting each others dicks even on the MTR haha.. until both of them got so paranoid abt pple trying to hit their dicks haha.. anyway we went shopping at nathan road.. and jeong and i went lacoste while alex and bernice went Tough.. after that we jus walked and walked and ended up at this cool place which had all sorts of cool thinggs but we were already so tired so we jus went in for a while and headed back to the hotel after that..i cant seem to remember wad we had for dinner though.. haha anyways.. we planned to go disney land the next day..

DAY 4

disney land day!!!! haha.. we woke up at about 830 and went to haf breakfast at times square macs.. haha.. apparently they haf MCmacoroni hahaha.. dam cock la.. but alex seemed to like it.. ayways.. we took the MTR to disney land which took about 1 hr plus.. today is a monday by the way .. supposed to be quite empty but fuck me freddy...!!!!! it was freakin packed wif china pple... which pissed me off alot and the fucking hot weather wassnt helping but didnt want to spoil anybody's mood so yeap.. we went there.. haha.. took alot of pics and bought quite alot of stuff and alex got pissed off wif minnie mouse hahaha.. anyway bernice enjoyed herself so all's good.. after disney land we went mongkok to buy a bag to keep all of jeong's toys./. haha... we bargained wif this lady and finally got a SUPER HUGE BAG for 20 bucks.. haha.. anyway we went back to the hotel and rested... den we headed down to the pub for the set dinner whcih turned out to be fucking awesome.. it was cooling and there was soccer..!!!! hahaha.. ;) after that we went back to sleep.. and pack our bags ..

DAY 5

basically didnt do much.. went to the airport and headed home... sigh.. hong kong reallie does bring back alot of memories... plus when u travel wif friends/bros/sis/family its so much more memorable.. anyway i love all u guys man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HUM IS HARMFUL

2007-07-09T08:01:00.000-07:00

haha to ALL U SEE HUM LOVERS!!!!!!!! LOOK AT THE PICTURE AND DECIDE WHeTHER HUM IS HUMFUL (HARMFUL) photo courtesy of MR HAMPY

tHiNgs ArE gEttInG bEtTer...

2007-07-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

today was a great day...slept till abt 12+ dan woke up... haha we decided to go and book a bbq pit before its too late... managed to book a pit at 2 pm(who says u cant do things last min) hahaha.. dan after that alex and i went to buy food at supermarket.. haha.. things werent going so smoothly as dark clouds swooped above us... haha.we actually tot of cancelling the bbq but fuck it we went ahead wif the plan haha.. =Pp. after that we went back to my place to get ready.. dan ashley arrived at my place.. so i showed her around.. =P she thinks my dogs are scary but they are jus over friendly.. anyway.. haha.. anyway dad left alex the care keys so he drove us to ecp.. waited for about 30 mins till andrew and the rest got there.. haha.. =Pp after that we jus started bbqing and toking cock lor.. quite fun la.. dan dont know y everyone started jus walking away and sitting alone.. =((( ashley ah.. eugene ah.. haha.. nvm.. wadeva problems u guys have.. i hope it gets resolved soon.. haha.. anyway i tink my bbqing skills are getting better haha.. =Ppp oh by the way.. jeong bot absolute pears which is freaking nice to drink.. =Pp here are some pics.. by the way.. thanks for coming guys.!~!~ love yall

sigh!~

2007-07-07T12:30:00.000-07:00

thought i would be better after a good nite's sleep but guess not.. it still hurts from inside.. i guess time will slowly heal my heart.anyway woke up today and felt reallie lifeless.. no meaning in life.. sigh.. anyway didnt do much whole day.. jem came to pick me up at 5+ to go club where i was meeting ash and sharon.. =p anyway when i reached i wasnt in too good a mood.but everyone else seemed to be in a bad mood..actually wanted to be the bad mooded one but turned out i was telling pple lame jokes to make them laugh haha.. sigh.. its time i bring out the devil in me.. no point being a nice guy all the time.. in the end everyone starts stepping over ur head.bah! fuck la.. onli fun i had today was ktving.. ashley can sing dam nice.. sharon.. hmmm.. she can sing but somehow shes like paiseh to sing.. but i guess the best singer/screamer awards has to go to sammie boi.. !~!~ haha.. love u bro.. =((( sigh.. i dont know y am i still in a bad mood.. comeon foongy!! cheer up!~hopefully tmr will be a better day.. didnt eat anything the whole day until like 5 mins ago.. had macs.. haha. almost fainted whilst playing soccer.. haha.. fucking taibai if only i fainted and never woke up.. !~ =(((((((((((

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2007-07-06T13:22:00.000-07:00

jus came home from a drinking session at riverine.. i dont know y but i jus feel fucked up.. seriously.. i dont think its because of anything particularly.. jus feeling down.. sometimes i feel that when my friends need me.. i cant be of much help. like i dont haf any comforting words to say but all i can say is... eh ok anot.. but fuck i dont think thats enuff.. anyways.. and wtf is wif all the GGing of each other.. come on la.. so young wanna fight for girls.. i mean.. y cant we all just be friends.. i tink as we grow older.. our bond is growing thinner by the minute.. y cant we jus go back to those old times when we jus meet up for a drink and talk cock.. now there is so much tension amongst ourselves.. fuck it la..im not trying to say anyone in particular.. but so far tonight 2 people have asked me abt wads wif the gging among each other.. how am i suppose to answer that? im not involved in any way.. but bros are bros.. i hope we just stop all this fucking shit.. like wtf.. anyway.. things didnt get much better.. i know he means no harm la.. but it fucking sucked when uncle william said i was ugly.. i mean.. ya i know i am but he didnt haf to spell it out in front of everyone.. haha not his fault la.. i am wad.. what to do... if only... if only.. i dont know if onli wad la.. feeling dam sian.. just now andrew cried.. dont know y la.. felt like crying too.. i wanted to tell him i know how he feels..but do i reallie? sigh.. i feel like crying..realie do.. but i wouldnt know y i would be crying..

im such a fucking failure.. cant even do well in my studies.. i suck at bowling.. i cant even get my driving licence.. im ugly.. i mean wads the fucking point of living.. haha.. oh i know. let pple make fun of me.. " oh look its the ah pui again" haha.. or " eh faster eat later foong eat ur food" and theres the oh so famous line of " eh moses" or "porky pig" haha.. wow.. sigh.. no point saying fuck all of u la.. when like its so fucking true.. im like a fucking liability la.. sit at home waste money.. smoke smoke smoke.. fucking chimney kia.. i still remember.. my fucking aunty.. at my grandad's birthday.. wah foong wad happened to u? so fat!!! and ur hair looks like shit.. haha.. i was pissed off obviously.. but now come to think abt it.. i tink she was like rite.. sigh.. eh foong.. look so happy haha.. so lucky always travel.. haha.. wadeva la.. cheebye.. sigh =((((((((((((((

5th july 2007

2007-07-04T10:03:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. saw this sign at the zoo that day.. bet u folks dint know wad a hinny was rite... haha.. well u learn something new everyday.. haha =)) anyways... life is reallie boring without anything to do everyday.. but im gona start helping mom with her property agent thingy.. hopefully.. she'll pay me some good money!! haha.. sian.. no one online.. howie say dont wanna go zouk in the end still go.. haha.. anyway yesterday diinner was nice.. jem treated us to sting ray popiah oyster omelette and other goodies at lagoon... its cos he passed his driving test.. (good job jemmy) hahaha.. anyway looking forward to this weekend.. fri going riverine to chill.. sat interclub can ktv with ash sharon they all.. sun shud b having a bbq. NICE.. haha tc yall

robots in disguise!~!~!~!~!!~

2007-07-02T09:09:00.000-07:00

woOohOoo jus came home from watching transformers.. its the coolest show man.. i swear to god.. haha.. wah lau.. but the ending a bit suck la.. the stupid megatron died.. hahaha.. so easily.. sian man.. dan optimus prime like all of a sudden become so lousy when fighting megatron.. anyway whole movie is dam shiok.. especially megan fox shes super hot.. cant wait to see transformers 2 man.. but dan again.. alot of nice movies coming out also.. haha..i still like spiderman 3 haha.. venom is cool shit..

by the way.. this car is FUCKING cool... haha.. i'd take this car over a porche anytime man.. its cute and its freeeeaking powerful.. haha.. plus it can get me megan fox haha.. sigh... =Ppp

so tired now man.. but when i see her.. im filled with energy again.. shiok
ahh so beautiful... anyway take care peeps.. and remember.. if there is no sacrifice there is no victory.. also... theres more than meets the eye.. =PpPp

A trip to the zoo

2007-06-29T12:59:00.000-07:00

Its bEen qUite LoNg since i went to the zoo.. and so i decided to go the zoo wif sam howie jem and claudia haha... it was quite fun.. i especially loved the crocodiles part.. i dont know y.. mayb its because they've been around for millions of years.. haha. anyways.. u know wad was dam funny.. before we even entered the zoo .. howie and jem lost their tickets.. they left it on the KFC table and the lady jus cleared everything... so i went into the bin and dugged out their tickets for them.. haha.. saved them both 15 bucks haha.. =pPppp zhai..

anyway.. the starting was quite fun.. lemme see..

haha this orang utan was jus hangin on the tree... luckily when i walked past it didnt pee on me cos moments later.. it peed on some indian couple haha... =))

next we moved on to the crocodiles.. i love crocs.. dam cool..

amazing rite.. the cros's penis is actually super small compared to other smaller animals haha... next stop was the children's world .. which is dam cool.. cos they had alot of farm animals.

haha loook at howie having so much fun..finally he gets to touch some tits.. hahah.. =))

i tink the whole zoo was dam fun except the insect part.. which i was totally grossed out at.. hahaha.. tell me ure grosssed out too...

other than this.. we pretty much had a blast taking photos and howie took a photo wif his .... relative.. hahaha

finally.. after about 6 hours at the zoo.. it was time to say goodbye to howie's relatives and the other cute animals.. haha.. it was a tiring day... and if i were a chimp... i would do this...

ZzzZzzZ... tired ahhhhhhhhhhhh.. haha tc everyone!!peace

MiNd tRiCkS....

2007-06-25T08:23:00.001-07:00

here's something i found in Ripley's Believe it or not.. hahaha quite interesting

seE iF u CaN dO iT