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im still thinking about it.. yes i am...
i lost to a small boy for gold medal... its true...
ok.. he has 29 pins handicap but thats no excuse.. i missed a fucking spare and lost to that asshole by 3 pins.. fuck.. am i destined to be a loser my whole life? fuck man.. i feel totally exhausted... mentally.. im giving up on everything.. life..bowlin.. love... friends.. family... there jus aint enuff in my heart and mind to take it in anymore... i'll jus concentrate on my studies... and fuck everything else... its jus too tiring... looks like 2008 isnt my year... fuck ............................................................................................................................

this world doesnt have a place for someone like me

new year 2008

The welcoming of the new year was celebrated at lesley's new pad.. it was a really cool place although the place is indeed a bit difficult to find parking space.. lol.. never the less.. it couldnt dampen our happy spirits as we welcomed the new year with a bang!!! lol.. lets haf a recap.. 2007 was indeed a year where many events took place.. first of all. it was the year i finished my national service.. lol.. hmm.. i made new friends.. lost some.. travelled to places... meet new people.. lol.. actually it was pretty fun la.. hope 2008 will be as fun as last year.. !! anyway hope u guys enjoyed the pics!! love yall!!

christmas 2007

christmas 2007 was a blast.. lol.. cept for the absence of a few people... which kinda dampened the mood.. well once again.. i got high at riverine.. lol... hmmm countdown was quite cool... i had a can of spray.. which i unleashed on everyone lol... hahaha.. christmas day itself was spent at my hse... where we exchanged gifts and had quite a christmas spread of food.. only thing lacking was santa and a christmas tree.. other than that... i had fun.. lol.. =) thanks everyone for the presents.. i lurveee them... lol.. hopefully all this giving and loving spirit lasts longer.. than there wont be more quarrels and fights... anyway merry xmas everyone ... i love all of u..

im back........

With all the fun and excitement of the year coming to an end and christmas around the corner.. i hardly had time to blog... or hardly wanted to blog.. first there was the annual milo trip that we all loved... jus that this year was abit different because some bros had NS commitments so they couldnt make it.. nevertheless.. it was great fun..we had ramly burgers and all that... lol.. smoking was great fun too... and we pratically got drunk/high every night.. lol... well.. here are some pics.. enjoy..

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Everybody wants to be loved
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold onto
Just like a helpless child, yeah
Can you whisper in my ear
To let me know it's alright

=)

To: my bfam
after the talk last night that we had.. i hope we have a better understanding of each other.. i want u to know that we'll always be bros no matter wad happens.. i know how it feels to lose a friend... ive jus lost one.. and the feeling isnt very good.. anyways.. as we were saying.. although there is a barrier between us now.. i hope in time to come.. we can break the wall and get back to where we used to be... and it hurts to see u so sad man.. so lets do all we can to get the happy u back ok? i dont care wad others say la... u will always be my bro and i will always haf u back no matter what..

To: everyone
ive always tried everything to make everyone around me happy but sometimes no matter what i do... some of the times some things just wont end up the way i want it to be.. i guess thats jus life but honestly.. i am really really so so tired of everything...im just... human too

my biggest regret

when i was younger i loved to eat... KFC.. MAcs.. wadeva u name it... i would eat it.. i thought that life was short.. so i mite as well enjoy while i can.. it was only when i grew older that i realise how stupid i was.. sigh.. but it was too late.. i was the "resident" ah pui.. or fatty... those nicknames were only the not so mean ones that people hook me up with...

i used to think... wads wrong with being fat? but apparently everything is wrong.. u get tired easily.... sickness all comes along with it.. and worse of all. the mockery..

sometimes i really wish i wasnt fat... somehow it seems that others really hate fat pple.. fat pple werent meant to wear nice clothes.. fat pple werent meant to be happy.. fat pple take up more space... fat pple are smelly.. fat pple are annoying and ugly..

sometimes i wish...sometimes i pray.. that god would gif me another chance to start all over again