christmas 2007

christmas 2007 was a blast.. lol.. cept for the absence of a few people... which kinda dampened the mood.. well once again.. i got high at riverine.. lol... hmmm countdown was quite cool... i had a can of spray.. which i unleashed on everyone lol... hahaha.. christmas day itself was spent at my hse... where we exchanged gifts and had quite a christmas spread of food.. only thing lacking was santa and a christmas tree.. other than that... i had fun.. lol.. =) thanks everyone for the presents.. i lurveee them... lol.. hopefully all this giving and loving spirit lasts longer.. than there wont be more quarrels and fights... anyway merry xmas everyone ... i love all of u..

im back........

With all the fun and excitement of the year coming to an end and christmas around the corner.. i hardly had time to blog... or hardly wanted to blog.. first there was the annual milo trip that we all loved... jus that this year was abit different because some bros had NS commitments so they couldnt make it.. nevertheless.. it was great fun..we had ramly burgers and all that... lol.. smoking was great fun too... and we pratically got drunk/high every night.. lol... well.. here are some pics.. enjoy..

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Everybody wants to be loved
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold onto
Just like a helpless child, yeah
Can you whisper in my ear
To let me know it's alright

=)

To: my bfam
after the talk last night that we had.. i hope we have a better understanding of each other.. i want u to know that we'll always be bros no matter wad happens.. i know how it feels to lose a friend... ive jus lost one.. and the feeling isnt very good.. anyways.. as we were saying.. although there is a barrier between us now.. i hope in time to come.. we can break the wall and get back to where we used to be... and it hurts to see u so sad man.. so lets do all we can to get the happy u back ok? i dont care wad others say la... u will always be my bro and i will always haf u back no matter what..

To: everyone
ive always tried everything to make everyone around me happy but sometimes no matter what i do... some of the times some things just wont end up the way i want it to be.. i guess thats jus life but honestly.. i am really really so so tired of everything...im just... human too

my biggest regret

when i was younger i loved to eat... KFC.. MAcs.. wadeva u name it... i would eat it.. i thought that life was short.. so i mite as well enjoy while i can.. it was only when i grew older that i realise how stupid i was.. sigh.. but it was too late.. i was the "resident" ah pui.. or fatty... those nicknames were only the not so mean ones that people hook me up with...

i used to think... wads wrong with being fat? but apparently everything is wrong.. u get tired easily.... sickness all comes along with it.. and worse of all. the mockery..

sometimes i really wish i wasnt fat... somehow it seems that others really hate fat pple.. fat pple werent meant to wear nice clothes.. fat pple werent meant to be happy.. fat pple take up more space... fat pple are smelly.. fat pple are annoying and ugly..

sometimes i wish...sometimes i pray.. that god would gif me another chance to start all over again

what's brewin?!?

so many things have happened the past month i find it really hard to absorb
i wish things werent the way they were... i feel like its a dream
but i woke up this morning and realised that it wasnt.. and it only made me feel like shit

i wish time could rewind and i wish i could haf been there..
i know it wouldnt haf made a difference because most of the time... it seems im not there even though im there...
sometimes i wish i never knew any of u because i hate being hurt..
but its impossible because its cos of u guys that i feel loved..
i guess time will heal everything but i know its gona be hard..
why mus love be so complicated and hurtful?
why mus friends lie to one another?
why mus bros fight each other?
Is it my destiny to let pple walk all over me?
im sick and tired of all this .. i wish i could end it all now...

something i haf to say

my brother/s please pay attention
ive had it with all these tension
ive had it with all the lies and deceit
ive lost.. i admit defeat
i cant deal with all the pain i feel
it hurts so much i dont know if its real
i wanna cry but not in ur face..
mayb we shouldnt haf became bros in the first place..
i trusted u with all my heart..
but honestly haf u played ur part?
When i look at u i dont know wad to do or say..
i guess its jus that price i hafta pay
well guess wad im leaving for someplace better
a place without pain or tears..
but i guess ure rite .. i gotta face my fears..
but i shouldnt haf liked her in the first place..
it was impossible.. shes an angel and i.. a demon
rite now i feel like ive got no friends... NONE
not even a single one
u took wad matters most in my life
made fun of me and stabbed me with a knife...
i dont need u... i dont need u...

s.a.d.n.e.s.s

直到所有的梦已破碎
才看见你的眼泪和后悔
我是多想再给你机会
多想问你究竟爱谁
既然爱难分是非
就别逃避勇敢面对
给了他的心你是否能够要得回

do true friends really exist?

lol...

lol.... dam funny la... laugh leh.... LOL =(

sigh

i was at club jus now and overheard the adults talking.. apparently they kinda discriminate our grp of friends... apparently one of us is mistaken for a thief... one likes to borrow money... one likes to gamble alot.... one has a bad boy image and blah blah blah... it really is quite disheartening to hear this kinda stuff and i really dont know why pple haf that impression of us.. we're jus a bunch of good kids that are ocassionally naughty and playful... adults jus dont understand us...

lots of times i hear adults telling their children not to hang out wif me... or to get too close to me because i somewhat potray a bad boy image... thats how i am wad... deep down im really jus a nice boy that everyone misunderstands....sigh... it really sucks la.... sian...

happy birthday big nose!~!~!!!!!

happy birthday howie bro!!~!~ although its not ur birthday yet... im wishing u first.. lol... anyway its been great having u as a bro although at times i really feel like slapping ur face.. LOL...but sometimes when im down .. ure really the only few friends that i can talk to and somehow i can feel better about myself and look at things at a more positive angle..anyway u know i love u and u'll always be in the grp although i always say ure OUT... lol... anyway happy 21TH LOL... bros for life....

sammie boy's party!!!

sammie boy's party was a blast... lol.. shall not wish him happy birthday yet as his birthday is on the 25th... anyway.. food was great..atmosphere was great.... had fun takin loads of pics and chilling out wif everyone who were greatly dressed....oOoH... anyway thanks for the invite sammie boy.. had alot of fun... GREAT to haf u back in singapore as well... miss all the times we spent together leh... =pPpP and sorry i left early... but u know i LOVE U.. forever and ever babe... LOL.. cheers... we won deal or no deal...

happy birthday jiak lor meee

happy birthday jemmy boy..... i hope u haf outgrown the bra we bought for u last year... lol... anyway may all ur dreams and wishes come true okie dokie? =pPpp anyway u and meiru look really sweet together... *so jealous* LOL.... no la.. anyway hope u and meiru haf a fairy tale ending.. once again.. happy birthday jeremy

happy birthday alexius pek cai wang

hey alexius pekkie bro... happy 19th birthday!~ im so proud of u man... we've been bros for so long.. lol.. u will always be my bigger and taller Little bro.. hahaha.. thanks for all the fun times dat we've shared and had... u know i'll always haf ur back no matter wad problems there may be.. big or small.. anyways.. enjoy ur special day... =pPpP bros for life

happy birthday dad!!!!!

happy 57th dad!!! u know i love u although u always nag nag nag... wah sometimes cant take it ahhhh... LoL .. anyway... im not gona tell alex u gg bernice HAHAHA.... shhhhhh!~!~!~!~~~~ anyway thanks for being such a great dad man... love u forever and ever... u rock my socks.... ;)

happy burfday meg!~!~

yo meg meg meg!~!!~~ happy happy birthday!~!~ 19 years young already!~!~ must be feeling great... lol.. may all ur dreams and wishes come true kk.. =pPpp anyways although we hardly hang out nowadays u know i still lurveeee u.. Lol.. take good care ok!! study hard hahaha.. hmmm... oh ya.. please eat more.. ure becoming thinner dan ele..hugz muackz.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. enjoy this day man.. its once in a lifetime that u turn 19.. !~!~!~!~!~!~~~! cheers xoxo

happy birthday wanying!~!~

happy birthday bernice!~!~

bernice's birthday was a smash.. had so much fun singing ktv with everyone... except some asses that went to play pool.. haha took many funny videos of howie singing... dam zhai.. LOl.. anyway i wanna wish bernice happYness and Bliss forever and ever... ;) hope u like the dress... u look HORDE in it.. er i mean hawt... hot.. well u get the picture.. lol.. anyways ur singing rocks my socks.. wo ai feng le... nice song.. lol =PppPp

happy birthday alex!~

happy birthday to u my bro!~~!~ known u for almost 8 years already.. it has been my honour to haf u as a friend and bro and i will always cherish u for the rest of my life... TTC brother.. lol... i love u loads man.. =PpP peace out.. oh.. laigek and jasmine says hi to u.. LOL