hmmm

Alot of pple have recently said that ive changed alot.. be it.. "ure no longer as cheerful as u used to be".. or "how come u dont chill out with us anymore"..... or wadeva.. but seriously .. think abt it urselves... are u sure im the one that has changed? and not u guys? wadeva it is.. i hope time will heal everything and if ive done anything to offend anyone? im sorry and i sincerely apologise..

but honestly... looking back... i dont know how i can face u guys la..and i also dont know how u guys can face me.. 2007 has honestly been uber fucked... to the core.. wadeva it is.. its already 2008.. so lets work towards a brighter future.. tgt.. hopefully..


p.s DAD IM GONA PROVE U WRONG!!!!!!!

filled to the brim

i feel like a can of coke that has been shaken a few times. ready to explode when the top of me has been opened. been keeping too many tings inside of me when i shud haf spoken up.. wad i am now is a can of shaken coke being put back into the fridge. waiting for the next victim of a prank.

sometimes i stand at the road side and wonder what it would feel like to be knocked down by one of the fast moving cars.. would i feel the pain? would i die instantly? would anyone cry for me... if i didnt die.. i wished that i would haf lost my memory because there are so many tings that i rather not remember..

memories that cause me so much hurt and pain ... memories that cause me to cry myself to sleep sometimes.. i really hate to appear happy when im not and appear to laugh when actually i feel like crying.. call me emo or wadeva but this is how i really feel and i dont need consolation from anyone..

if i die.. would i go to heaven? i doubt it.. ive done so much evil in this life.. if i could.. i would start this life all over again.. make it more worthwile.. make life more enjoyable.. start studying hard..at tis point in time.. all i see myself in 10 years time is sweeping the roads in orchard road.. or worse... begging in the streets of orchard..

p.s im sorry =)

T_T

im still thinking about it.. yes i am...
i lost to a small boy for gold medal... its true...
ok.. he has 29 pins handicap but thats no excuse.. i missed a fucking spare and lost to that asshole by 3 pins.. fuck.. am i destined to be a loser my whole life? fuck man.. i feel totally exhausted... mentally.. im giving up on everything.. life..bowlin.. love... friends.. family... there jus aint enuff in my heart and mind to take it in anymore... i'll jus concentrate on my studies... and fuck everything else... its jus too tiring... looks like 2008 isnt my year... fuck ............................................................................................................................

this world doesnt have a place for someone like me

new year 2008

The welcoming of the new year was celebrated at lesley's new pad.. it was a really cool place although the place is indeed a bit difficult to find parking space.. lol.. never the less.. it couldnt dampen our happy spirits as we welcomed the new year with a bang!!! lol.. lets haf a recap.. 2007 was indeed a year where many events took place.. first of all. it was the year i finished my national service.. lol.. hmm.. i made new friends.. lost some.. travelled to places... meet new people.. lol.. actually it was pretty fun la.. hope 2008 will be as fun as last year.. !! anyway hope u guys enjoyed the pics!! love yall!!