i believe......

i called u my angel.. i called u my friend...
i was there when u needed a hand..
but alas.. disappointment is all i recieved
never this hard haf i been decieved
i invited u into my life...
yet wad u drove thru my heart was a knife
is there a point in going on being friends forever
wads next? a sword or a bloody cleaver
i reallie dont know wad to do when i with you.. act like nothing happened..?
while behind my back ur having ur knife sharpened..
it hurts me deeply everytime i tink of wad u did
u caused me pain and left me to die in the pit
from today onwards ... i'll never be here for you..
this is the end .. of me and u

blinded by it.......

ur presence makes the roses red..

if u ever go they would jus drop dead

i so very much wanna make u happy

even when time passes and ur boobs grow saggy (er.... haha)

i will do everything i can..

even if u want me to count the sand..

i'll be all u ever need...

like how a flower needs it seed..

mayb one day we will look back and think abt this

like when one of us is deceased

but for the time being let the good times roll

even if all we do is take a midnight stroll..

i'll love u for as long as i can

i'll be here if u need me... forever and ever...

• Ash ...ur welcome... get well soon

roses are red.. violets are blue.. honey is sweet. so are u

sometimes god puts a tear in ur eye to let u see..
how much u mean to me..
i dont care if everyone says we're not a pair
i dont care if the uncles and aunties stare
i swear my love for u is real
i'll love u even if u grow a tail
time will reveal that we are meant to be
if hugs were water.. i would gif u the sea
if kisses were leaves.. i would gif u a tree
if love was time.. i would gif u eternity

sigh.... i hate smiling to pretend im not hurt.. i hate to giggle to show i'll be ok.. i hate to laugh after i cry.. i still love u but i'll haf to say goodbye.. (T_T)

god..pls help me

i reallie dont know wad to do...
everything i do ends up like dog poo

ive reallie tried my best..

its like putting my heart to the test..

everyone is starting to detest.. me

i know i can be a fucking asshole

even to pple i dont reallie knoe

but this is me... im born like this

but i guess i only know howta make pple piss

wad can i say.. this is foong...

he's reallie one big fuck head..

slap me pls.. till my face is red...

till there is flowing blood...

dan u can end it by kicking my head in the mud

im already at my wits end..

from here on.. this is my decend..

somebody shud teach me a lesson

somebody pls gif me a reason...

y the fuck did i ever get into this mess

come on baby.. stab me in the chest..

i really wanna cry....

but alas.. my tears have run dry

TO my brother from another mother and father... i love u alot.. 14 years of broship and still going strong.. dont worry things are fine.. and im sure if u be persistent.. things will definately go ur way and god bless u in wadeva u do... keep smiling keep shining.. knowing u can always count on me.. 4 sure.. thats wad bros are for...

PS. SORRIE MEIRU

if only.....

The first time i saw u... i knew u were the one

A girl that i could talk to.. someone to haf some fun

although we may not talk that much at all..

my love for u aint small...

i love the way u walk

i love the way u talk...

though u mite not notice that i care...

i do.. even more than i do my hair..

i never thought i'd find someone... as sweet lookin as u

for u i'll do anything.. even if it breaks a rule

mayb someday u will notice me...

and someday u will see

fairytales are not jus in story books.. =p

nOthIng tO sAY........................

Sometimes in the night... i tink of the many things we could have done.
Sometimes in the night.. i wonder how u haf friends and i haf none
things could haf worked out better if i wasnt for me
i doubt things will get any better u will see..
i cant stop thinking about how much of a sucker i haf been
it feels like im always caught in between.. sigh
all i crave for is a little more attention..
otherwise amongst us there will always b tension
sometimes.. all i want is some time to share my life wif u
but all i can manage is a ......shut up.. fuck u
i crack jokes to make u laugh..
i tell the truth u call me a bluff
wad more can i gif of me
ive given more than the entire sea.....
forget it there isnt a point...
jus slice me .. cut me..at any joint.....
the pain i feel wont hurt as much as my heart..
cos it feels like ive been torn apart.......................................... (T_T)

@#$%^&*(

sometiimes i jus dont feel like talking... no mood.. call me emo but thts the way things are.. and when u make me talk.. i giv a 1 word reply and u pple tink im showing attitude.. if all of u cant stand it dont talk to me...look man this is who i am. ive jus been feeling reallie down lately and i wanna b alone.. is that a crime? do i haf to report to u? no rite.. so stop FUCKING tryin to make me involved in ur conversations.. i like to be left alone.. i know this makes me look like a loner but i guess that is pretty much true.. i dont haf many friends and dont intend to make any good ones.. so wad? life isnt about having friends.. are ur friends gona support ur family in future? friends are a liability.. especially someone.. i hope ure reading this.. look man.. i dont know wad im talking abt la.. fucking bad mood.. __( *_*) __

hOng Kong trIp wiF aH beE aNd hAmPY

Hong Kong can be a very fun place to go.... thats if u go during the right season.. fuck it was like 35 degrees everyday ... i didnt even have the mood to smoke la... =PpP and fuckin china pple made it even worst.. fucking irritating bunch of fuckheads haha.. all in all it was a great trip and here is a recap of wad we did..

DAY 1

we left for the airport from my hse at 5.30 am.. arrived and checked in and.... had BK for breakfast.. jem was suppose to come but he didnt in the end.. *disappointed* hahaha. but nvm la.. no point coming all the way down jus to say hi.. bye.. hahaha... anyway flight to HK was about 3.5 hrs and when we arrived .. there was a massive queue at the immigration thingy.. theres nothing i hate more in life dan queuing.. anyway.. we checked into our hotel and dan went to walk around.. ended up at times square where we spent like 1 hr checking each and everystore out.. after that we spotted a salon and decided to go and do our hair... haha.. freaking ex i tell u.. i permed my hair and bleached it.. $255 . almost fainted.. after that we went for dinner and headed back to the hotel to snooze

DAY 2

we woke up at abt 9 am and decided to head off to look for my mom... haha.. to get money.. =Ppp anyway it took abt 45 mins by MTR and i was quite happy to see mom and some of the other pple.. had lunch at the bowling alley which was dam shiok chicken... oh ya i forgot to mention dat alex and jeong kept buying curry fishballs and other stuff from road side stalls..

after lunch we went to mongkok to do a lil shopping.. i tell u its freaking hot so i didnt even felt like bargaining.. but i did anyway... bought quite alot of stuff la.. after that hmmm.. we went back to the hotel to rest for a while dan we went out for some porridge thingy which actually was not bad... haha... we went to rest after that and gambled a bit in the rooms.. =pPp i also forgot to mention that i had like alot of vitagen... or is it yakult?

DAY 3

we had planned to go to disney land today but alex wasnt feeling very well.. so we decided to go haf dim sum wif my relative.. wah the food was freeeeakingggg shiok hahaha.. especially the charsiew... oh ya guys... apparently im the GG master.. dont know la.. they all crazy want.. especially alex and jeong.. cant stop hitting each others dicks even on the MTR haha.. until both of them got so paranoid abt pple trying to hit their dicks haha.. anyway we went shopping at nathan road.. and jeong and i went lacoste while alex and bernice went Tough.. after that we jus walked and walked and ended up at this cool place which had all sorts of cool thinggs but we were already so tired so we jus went in for a while and headed back to the hotel after that..i cant seem to remember wad we had for dinner though.. haha anyways.. we planned to go disney land the next day..

DAY 4

disney land day!!!! haha.. we woke up at about 830 and went to haf breakfast at times square macs.. haha.. apparently they haf MCmacoroni hahaha.. dam cock la.. but alex seemed to like it.. ayways.. we took the MTR to disney land which took about 1 hr plus.. today is a monday by the way .. supposed to be quite empty but fuck me freddy...!!!!! it was freakin packed wif china pple... which pissed me off alot and the fucking hot weather wassnt helping but didnt want to spoil anybody's mood so yeap.. we went there.. haha.. took alot of pics and bought quite alot of stuff and alex got pissed off wif minnie mouse hahaha.. anyway bernice enjoyed herself so all's good.. after disney land we went mongkok to buy a bag to keep all of jeong's toys./. haha... we bargained wif this lady and finally got a SUPER HUGE BAG for 20 bucks.. haha.. anyway we went back to the hotel and rested... den we headed down to the pub for the set dinner whcih turned out to be fucking awesome.. it was cooling and there was soccer..!!!! hahaha.. ;) after that we went back to sleep.. and pack our bags ..

DAY 5

basically didnt do much.. went to the airport and headed home... sigh.. hong kong reallie does bring back alot of memories... plus when u travel wif friends/bros/sis/family its so much more memorable.. anyway i love all u guys man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HUM IS HARMFUL

haha to ALL U SEE HUM LOVERS!!!!!!!! LOOK AT THE PICTURE AND DECIDE WHeTHER HUM IS HUMFUL (HARMFUL) photo courtesy of MR HAMPY

tHiNgs ArE gEttInG bEtTer...

today was a great day...slept till abt 12+ dan woke up... haha we decided to go and book a bbq pit before its too late... managed to book a pit at 2 pm(who says u cant do things last min) hahaha.. dan after that alex and i went to buy food at supermarket.. haha.. things werent going so smoothly as dark clouds swooped above us... haha.we actually tot of cancelling the bbq but fuck it we went ahead wif the plan haha.. =Pp. after that we went back to my place to get ready.. dan ashley arrived at my place.. so i showed her around.. =P she thinks my dogs are scary but they are jus over friendly.. anyway.. haha.. anyway dad left alex the care keys so he drove us to ecp.. waited for about 30 mins till andrew and the rest got there.. haha.. =Pp after that we jus started bbqing and toking cock lor.. quite fun la.. dan dont know y everyone started jus walking away and sitting alone.. =((( ashley ah.. eugene ah.. haha.. nvm.. wadeva problems u guys have.. i hope it gets resolved soon.. haha.. anyway i tink my bbqing skills are getting better haha.. =Ppp oh by the way.. jeong bot absolute pears which is freaking nice to drink.. =Pp here are some pics.. by the way.. thanks for coming guys.!~!~ love yall

sigh!~

thought i would be better after a good nite's sleep but guess not.. it still hurts from inside.. i guess time will slowly heal my heart.anyway woke up today and felt reallie lifeless.. no meaning in life.. sigh.. anyway didnt do much whole day.. jem came to pick me up at 5+ to go club where i was meeting ash and sharon.. =p anyway when i reached i wasnt in too good a mood.but everyone else seemed to be in a bad mood..actually wanted to be the bad mooded one but turned out i was telling pple lame jokes to make them laugh haha.. sigh.. its time i bring out the devil in me.. no point being a nice guy all the time.. in the end everyone starts stepping over ur head.bah! fuck la.. onli fun i had today was ktving.. ashley can sing dam nice.. sharon.. hmmm.. she can sing but somehow shes like paiseh to sing.. but i guess the best singer/screamer awards has to go to sammie boi.. !~!~ haha.. love u bro.. =((( sigh.. i dont know y am i still in a bad mood.. comeon foongy!! cheer up!~hopefully tmr will be a better day.. didnt eat anything the whole day until like 5 mins ago.. had macs.. haha. almost fainted whilst playing soccer.. haha.. fucking taibai if only i fainted and never woke up.. !~ =(((((((((((

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jus came home from a drinking session at riverine.. i dont know y but i jus feel fucked up.. seriously.. i dont think its because of anything particularly.. jus feeling down.. sometimes i feel that when my friends need me.. i cant be of much help. like i dont haf any comforting words to say but all i can say is... eh ok anot.. but fuck i dont think thats enuff.. anyways.. and wtf is wif all the GGing of each other.. come on la.. so young wanna fight for girls.. i mean.. y cant we all just be friends.. i tink as we grow older.. our bond is growing thinner by the minute.. y cant we jus go back to those old times when we jus meet up for a drink and talk cock.. now there is so much tension amongst ourselves.. fuck it la..im not trying to say anyone in particular.. but so far tonight 2 people have asked me abt wads wif the gging among each other.. how am i suppose to answer that? im not involved in any way.. but bros are bros.. i hope we just stop all this fucking shit.. like wtf.. anyway.. things didnt get much better.. i know he means no harm la.. but it fucking sucked when uncle william said i was ugly.. i mean.. ya i know i am but he didnt haf to spell it out in front of everyone.. haha not his fault la.. i am wad.. what to do... if only... if only.. i dont know if onli wad la.. feeling dam sian.. just now andrew cried.. dont know y la.. felt like crying too.. i wanted to tell him i know how he feels..but do i reallie? sigh.. i feel like crying..realie do.. but i wouldnt know y i would be crying..

im such a fucking failure.. cant even do well in my studies.. i suck at bowling.. i cant even get my driving licence.. im ugly.. i mean wads the fucking point of living.. haha.. oh i know. let pple make fun of me.. " oh look its the ah pui again" haha.. or " eh faster eat later foong eat ur food" and theres the oh so famous line of " eh moses" or "porky pig" haha.. wow.. sigh.. no point saying fuck all of u la.. when like its so fucking true.. im like a fucking liability la.. sit at home waste money.. smoke smoke smoke.. fucking chimney kia.. i still remember.. my fucking aunty.. at my grandad's birthday.. wah foong wad happened to u? so fat!!! and ur hair looks like shit.. haha.. i was pissed off obviously.. but now come to think abt it.. i tink she was like rite.. sigh.. eh foong.. look so happy haha.. so lucky always travel.. haha.. wadeva la.. cheebye.. sigh =((((((((((((((

5th july 2007

hahaha.. saw this sign at the zoo that day.. bet u folks dint know wad a hinny was rite... haha.. well u learn something new everyday.. haha =)) anyways... life is reallie boring without anything to do everyday.. but im gona start helping mom with her property agent thingy.. hopefully.. she'll pay me some good money!! haha.. sian.. no one online.. howie say dont wanna go zouk in the end still go.. haha.. anyway yesterday diinner was nice.. jem treated us to sting ray popiah oyster omelette and other goodies at lagoon... its cos he passed his driving test.. (good job jemmy) hahaha.. anyway looking forward to this weekend.. fri going riverine to chill.. sat interclub can ktv with ash sharon they all.. sun shud b having a bbq. NICE.. haha tc yall

robots in disguise!~!~!~!~!!~

woOohOoo jus came home from watching transformers.. its the coolest show man.. i swear to god.. haha.. wah lau.. but the ending a bit suck la.. the stupid megatron died.. hahaha.. so easily.. sian man.. dan optimus prime like all of a sudden become so lousy when fighting megatron.. anyway whole movie is dam shiok.. especially megan fox shes super hot.. cant wait to see transformers 2 man.. but dan again.. alot of nice movies coming out also.. haha..i still like spiderman 3 haha.. venom is cool shit..



by the way.. this car is FUCKING cool... haha.. i'd take this car over a porche anytime man.. its cute and its freeeeaking powerful.. haha.. plus it can get me megan fox haha.. sigh... =Ppp


so tired now man.. but when i see her.. im filled with energy again.. shiok
ahh so beautiful... anyway take care peeps.. and remember.. if there is no sacrifice there is no victory.. also... theres more than meets the eye.. =PpPp