i've recently found out that ive had a disease for quite a while.. but i dont know how to tell anyone.. I've got to get my act together .. get well soon otherwise i wont haf a future to look forward too.. its killing me slowly and i dont know what to do.. thinking about it... reallie makes me feel... heartbroken and disheartened.. if only i had done my parents proud while i could... i mean.. all these times failing exams and stuff.. sigh.. brings back alot of memories..i remember the day i got my PSLE results.. my dad jus looked at me and i could see tears forming at the corner of his eyes. Once again.. his son had failed him terribly.. i decided from then on.. i had to work real hard... i got into sec1 express but on condition that i bowled for the school.. in order to do that.. i had to go training everyday after school.. hence i didnt study much and dropped to "normal" stream. Once again i had disappointed my parents.. but there was hope.. i could go back to express in sec 3. But as u all know.. i didnt manage to do it.. as i got more involved in bowling... didnt do well in sec sch and dad sent me overseas to further my studies but i guessed i fucked that up as well... Anyway... there is no cure for the disease that im carrying at the moment.. im at a loss as well.. sigh.. if only time didnt pass the quickly.. i want to go back being a small boy with no worries at all.. i used to carry my Ninja Turtle toy wherever i went.. hahaha.. i mus say.. ive had a blessed childhood... got to travel first class everywhere we went.. some adults havent eeven sat an aeroplane their whole lives.. sigh.. if only time could stop and i could savour this moment that ive had.., or having.. but if i go.... i would reallie miss u alot.. no doubt about it.. anyways.. guys.. take care.. cherish every moment u guys haf with ur friends .. family and loved ones..
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