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jus came home from a drinking session at riverine.. i dont know y but i jus feel fucked up.. seriously.. i dont think its because of anything particularly.. jus feeling down.. sometimes i feel that when my friends need me.. i cant be of much help. like i dont haf any comforting words to say but all i can say is... eh ok anot.. but fuck i dont think thats enuff.. anyways.. and wtf is wif all the GGing of each other.. come on la.. so young wanna fight for girls.. i mean.. y cant we all just be friends.. i tink as we grow older.. our bond is growing thinner by the minute.. y cant we jus go back to those old times when we jus meet up for a drink and talk cock.. now there is so much tension amongst ourselves.. fuck it la..im not trying to say anyone in particular.. but so far tonight 2 people have asked me abt wads wif the gging among each other.. how am i suppose to answer that? im not involved in any way.. but bros are bros.. i hope we just stop all this fucking shit.. like wtf.. anyway.. things didnt get much better.. i know he means no harm la.. but it fucking sucked when uncle william said i was ugly.. i mean.. ya i know i am but he didnt haf to spell it out in front of everyone.. haha not his fault la.. i am wad.. what to do... if only... if only.. i dont know if onli wad la.. feeling dam sian.. just now andrew cried.. dont know y la.. felt like crying too.. i wanted to tell him i know how he feels..but do i reallie? sigh.. i feel like crying..realie do.. but i wouldnt know y i would be crying..

im such a fucking failure.. cant even do well in my studies.. i suck at bowling.. i cant even get my driving licence.. im ugly.. i mean wads the fucking point of living.. haha.. oh i know. let pple make fun of me.. " oh look its the ah pui again" haha.. or " eh faster eat later foong eat ur food" and theres the oh so famous line of " eh moses" or "porky pig" haha.. wow.. sigh.. no point saying fuck all of u la.. when like its so fucking true.. im like a fucking liability la.. sit at home waste money.. smoke smoke smoke.. fucking chimney kia.. i still remember.. my fucking aunty.. at my grandad's birthday.. wah foong wad happened to u? so fat!!! and ur hair looks like shit.. haha.. i was pissed off obviously.. but now come to think abt it.. i tink she was like rite.. sigh.. eh foong.. look so happy haha.. so lucky always travel.. haha.. wadeva la.. cheebye.. sigh =((((((((((((((